`RefLeCtioN oF LiFe`

2004-08-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

A CHANGE OF HEART.................
TIME WILL TELL....

2004-08-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

*sudden lost of mood to blog*i was practically staring at da lappie blankly.should haf gone out with da RSP volunteers juz now.i miss dem. sure do..n i felt terharu when dey asked me along to their outing n meeting.n dey wanted to meet me coz dey miss me too!!!*woohooo*there's a sudden urge of me to join dem back,but work calls.insyallah will b with dem in da next phase n start being active back.

am waiting for da next outing.dun forget to inform me k shymm*winks*

2004-08-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

not a good day today.got my LAN results which were not of my expectations....went to da doc n got a bad review...n da best thing is i got booked by da police today.go figure it out!!terrible day...

2004-08-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

*burps* i feel so full.had a hearty meal with dear at Mak's Place juz now.scrumptious food at reasonable price.never haf i seen dear eat so much.ahahha...so there was ikan bakar,hotplate tofu with prawns n tom yam soup.added to those were our home made barley n teh-cino.YUMMYY!!!!!the food there is damn good man..no wonder ppl keep talking bout it.am gonna make dat place a fav hawkerant(dat's wad it's called).hehehee...so before dinner we went to TM again.got my blazer at Metro.n it's much much cheaper den those boutiques.got myself a simple pair of slip ons..n made my toric lenses.cannot use normal lens ah.i haf to squint my eyes a lot.glad dear waited up for me after he clocked out.i was doing my fyp stuffs.
i was feeling a bit down too...but his presence cheered me up.got my MOE n ICC results today.passed da former n failed da latter.n da briefing at lt 35 juz now further dampened my mood when being told dat LAN paper had da most failures in da cohort.how depressing...everyone was shocked,thinking dat TFE would b da killer.but it's ok now.i feel betta with da company of dear ard.i haf many things to complete dis wk...need to call up da blind association,finish up fyp,write reports etc etc...so much work yet so little time.i'm feeling tired rite now.my cramps are still not gone yet,making me so pissed.gonna get LAN paper tomm.....*cross fingers*oh btw liza,i still can't get over wad u told me at breadboard juz now abt da sleeping pills + panadol activefast...i keep laughing n laughing..sorry gurl it's hilarious to me.jgn mawrah...hehehee....tink i need to sleep ah.ending da entry here....

2004-08-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog juz now...but i can't recall wad i wanna say.hahahaa...lemme think.it was juz a crampy day coz i was having my menses.bad bad cramps...had school till 3.after dat went blazer shopping at TM dis time.didn't manage to finish rounding there..will continue another day.after dat had dinner with dear at Jln Kayu.gonna watch Ella Enchanted now,courtesy of Nurul.managed to borrow da dvd from her when i was in da SME room.
da doom starts today at 9am.gonna get my first term test results.not expecting much..as long as it's not a single digit score,i'd b pretty happy.hahahaa...

2004-08-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

a short entry while waiting for dear to fetch me to school.....wanted to blog last nite but was extremely tired.yesterday was a purrfect day for me.yeah from da beginning till da end.was on morning shift yesterday.managed to find da 50 bucks dat i so called lost da nite b4 at work.n it's da store's money ok..not my personal one.yeps so dat made my mood :).work was fun...managed to crack up conversations with suriani coz i was at da same counter with her.customers were great..didn't encounter any fussy ones,manager was extremely friendly.hahahahaa...i wonder wad was wrong with her.she even wanted me to extend my contract when i juz started working here.aahahahaha...n da best thing by da end of my shift,my money tallied!!happy u know...so after work,i got changed n met my dear who was waiting for me outside.we walked ard..was suppose to get my blazer n his slippers but ended up with nuthing.ahahahaa...y??because da blazers were freaking expensive n da slippers were not to his taste.yeah searched ard for da slippers u know.ahahhaa...oh n i came by dis shop at heeren urbanmale.com.i juz realised dat shop existed.lame seh..dey were selling slippers of this particular brand.Mmmmm....wad wassit eh?oh hawainas or havainas...something like dat lah.omg!those slippers are da most lamest things of all..it's so freaking plain n yet so freaking expensive.n da best thing is it look like wad my mum wud say "selipar jamban".seriously..it's not worth it.i'd rather get da reef/quiksilver/ripcur/teva slippers for him.at least got design.even da hawainas/havainas so called sandals lah eh were like lame seh.n i still can't believe it's so expensive.haizz...lucky dear aso got da same taste as me.if he wanted da slippers from there,i dunno wad to say.hehehee....ok yeps so after much walking ard,i was too tired to continue.we decided to make our way home in a bus journey.reached home at abt 10.40pm.i felt way too happy for da day.thanx dear for making da end of my day worthwhile.*smiles*
so today it's back to school after da term break,which i neva considered as one.long day today...need to do my fyp after school.ok time is 11.25am..dear will be reaching in 5 mins time.off i go.........

2004-08-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

first n foremost...i'd like to apologise to ishdah cos i cudn't make da day out with her yesterday.yeahh i had school..sorry gurl.i'll make it up to u ok?so here's da summarization of my days.....
THURSDAY 12/8/04
was called up by supervisor in da morning.asked dear to fetch me...hehehe..n indeed had to meet my fyp mates.but ended up being only me n gowri coz da other 2 had other matters to attend.we didn't do da fyp..instead did our TCS storyboard.so me n gowri did dat thingy till abt 4 plus.after dat gowri made her way back while i went to da SME room.slacked there n waited for dear to clock out.since dear's soccer was cancelled,i asked him to accompany me eat.i was so hungry.so he brought me to afghanistan.after eating,we made our way back.something happened to me yesterday..n all i can say is thanx dear for being by my side.i was glad u were there.all ur reactions showed me da depth of ur love towards me.i'm sure now i never made da wrong choice to be with u...
i do cherish u,for da rest of my life..u dun haf to think twice.i will love u still from da depths of my soul,it's beyond my control..........
FRIDAY 13/8/04
OMG!!!it's friday da 13th...ahahahaa...ok ok so another day at school with a ride in da Nissan Sunny car.dis time with liza n kiat.we were seating at blk 10-3,n we saw so many graduates.hmmpphh!!!so jeles..nvm my time will come.so was in school till abt 3 n it was shopping time!!!was suppose to go with gowri lah..but she had to send her mum to hospital.dee wanted to go out with me,so i waited for her at TP bus stop.while waiting for her,had a phone chat with dear...at abt 3.30pm she reached n off we went to Suntec.had to shop for my blazer lah..need it for presentation.i had loads of fun with dee...hahahaa...recalling da incident in bus 133...there was dis apek who made a big fuss over da bus fare.da conductor of da bus ask him to pay da rite amt,n he so didn;t wanna do it...hahaaha...n u know wad he kept saying?"i pay money,i want to take number go complain at ROV."hhahaaha...lepak seh n he kept repeating it eh.cuckoo lah him.ok so back to da blazer shopping,well...da dress code for me n da girls has been set so i tot it wud b quite easy to get da shopping done.i was so wrong...omg...da blazers were like freaking expensive.so we pusing one suntec n citylink mall...there is dis particular blazer dat i saw at MATCH dat caught my eye,but da price is a bit steep.i mean i dun find da use of getting da expensive blazers coz i wun be using dem much.was abt to get da one at G2000 but da best thing,da size i wanted was sold out.arrrghhh!!!so ended up not buying blazer.instead got myself a nice pink shirt from one of da boutiques at suntec.n bought my mum a nice small gift too.ehehehee...wanted to get da belt from topshop,but when i tink bout it..y waste money on it when i can get da exact one cheaper at far east plaza?such a wastage of money on da labels.ahaaha...somehow i sound a bit stingy eh?hahahaa...hey i know da pains of working for ur own money ok.i'm going thru it.unlike some teenagers who're lucky to haf deir parents giving dem more den enuff money to spend on.or shud i juz call dem spoilt brats??ahahahaa...feeling a bit bitchy in my words today.ooops!!!
i was suppose to go out with dear today but he was going jb with his frens..so it's oklah.sunday dear?accompany me after work...go blazer shopping again.dis time at orchard...hehehee...i still need my slip-ons!!!i saw some nice ones juz now..dey were nice but errmm...not eye catching enuff to me.ahhahaa..me being da fussy one.dee shud know.she had a hard time going shopping with me.ok so i gtg n sleep now.work calls tommorrow.....

2004-08-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

yeps dat's me n my best bud.weird ain't it having a best fren of da opposite sex.but it's true.4 yrs of unbreakable friendship.fuuh like finally a happy day!banked in my cheque,met helmy at bugis after dat for a movie treat courtesy of him.yeah finally watched The Village.The plot is superb..though he finds it lame.ahahahaa...yeah seriously it's a gd show.suppose to be a thriller lah..but as wad dee says if u hayati da story u will find dat it is very touching.n indeed i found it touching too.how sweet of Ivy,da blind gerl to go against all odds to find cure for her lover.haizz...how touching.ehehehe...so before catching da movie,we slacked at starbucks first,as u can c from da pic above ah.n yesh being such a sweetie,he belanja me again.woow helmy i do owe u a big treat man.ehehheee...yups took dat photo from his camera phone.clear gilerrr...biasalah hp baru Nokia 6230.aarrgghh..i want a camera phone too.takpe sabar sabar..yeps so walked ard bugis.saw seri wahyuni jaes,da suria celebrity at Topshop n she was buying a lacy pair of black undies n girl boxer shorts there...fuiyooo...susah tau nak nampak celeb beli undergarments.hahahahaa...o ya,found a pair of slip ons from URS &INC which i'm eyeing on.gonna get dat dis friday.maybe shud ask for dear's opinion first.aahahahaha...n yes after da movie n da eye wash on stuffs,i met dear up for dinner n short time spend with him.thankfully things r ok now.i guess i haf to learn da art of giving in.noe wad i dun wish to quarrel with him anymore.it suxs ok..we're gonna try maintain it dis way.i really miss him like hell.ahahahaa...quote from wad he says.we go out dis friday ok dear..can get u da anni present maybe from topshop??or quiksilver?haahahaa..u decide k.
as i tink bout it..absence makes da heart grow fonder.yeps it sure does.ok ok enuff.hahahaa...can't wait to meet ishdah tommorrow.but before dat i haf skool.haizz...glad today was my day..it went well.hopefully tommorrow will b da same too....

2004-08-10T20:02:00.000+08:00

so wad's new?another sucky day....seriously.everything was well planned u know n den when i was at suntec already,things had to change.i was happily walking along city hall with nana...telling her where i wanna head to n buy.was so intending to go to Topshop n get something but yeah needed to take out my cash from da atm machine.so went ard looking for dat stoopid machine.found it,gay-ly typed in my pin number n found out dat there was not enuff cash to be withdrawn.F**K!!!!those ppl at my workplace didn't bank in my long awaited pay till today.i was so frustrated.i called dem up,n dey easily said "oh da cheque is in da office.we forgot to bank it in for u."wad da hell??!!!!i was so pissed.i was looking forward to catch da movie n shop n dis had to happen n worse of all i had to settle my hp bills by today.crap crap.n so i decided to collect da cheque personally.while walking to da busstop n waiting for da bus,guess wad happen?my slip ons had to wear out n tear apart.dat soo made my day.more frustration.i didn't wanna show nana i was pissed off.so i juz tried to be cool.on da way to orchard,mum called telling me dat da starhub ppl were looking for me.ok yah yah i know i haf to settle it by today.so i told mum da situation.luckily she was quite understanding n decided to lend me her money first.ok yah so went to collect da cheque.wanted to immediately bank it in but i went to da remittance centre instead of da bank itself.da girls,dee n nana wanted to catch da movie.so i told dem to juz separate.i lost my mood to go n watch da movie.i needed to settle my bills first.passed nana my free tix.i mean wads da use of it if i haf to go watch alone.went back,got da money from mum,brought syafiq along to da post office at paya lebar n finally settled da bills.treated myself n syafiq to loads of food..basically both of us slacked there.after dat made our way home,n dee sms-ed me telling me dat the movie was worth it.GREAT!!HOW GREAT!!!i can't help being pissed a bit.
it's been a wk feeling lonesome.n another wk to go to being alone.who knows suddenly i might juz get used to singlehood.scary isn't it.i mean yeah i've been handling things practically by myself.i dun find myself being dependent on my bf anymore.i've done something to him which just haunts him,but i dunno wad it is.it kills me...let it kill everything in me n let me be heartless n emotionless.let's juz c how things go.in da mean time..it's time for me to seek help from god.

2004-08-10T11:21:00.000+08:00

gooooooood morning!it's da holidays 4 me but i still haf to come back to school,at least not for today ah.hehehe...i'm going to da movies laterrr.YIPEEEE!!!!!n i really hope my pay is in by today.might gonna catch The Village.watched da trailer juz now, seems good.looking forward to a day with the girls again today.yeah da same old ones dat went out yesterday.yesterday was fun.yes indeed it was.dee brought her digicam but dat thing juz had to die out on us.damn!!cannot take photos.so there was me,nana,dee,syafiq n my kakak sedara..kak siti whom we met up later.we sat by marina promenade n da saddest thing,WE ONLY CAUGHT THE FIREWORKS ON SCREEN!!!!kesian seh syafiq.da tall buildings were blocking our view.dat's y cannot c.bladdy hell....ahahahahaa....it's oklah at least dapat tgk kat screen jadi lah.so yeps as usual da gals will b gossiping n exchanging stories.hehehee..fun fun fun!!!lurrve it.after so called catching da fireworks,we walked ard da pasar malam,got for syafiq a toy,da girls n me grabbed some bites.after dat proceeded to marina square cavana to haf our late dinner.lapar seh.n my brother was like one jin eh.makan tak ingat org.me n him were like supposed to share da food,but he ate majority of it.takpelah kesian dia lapar.gotta sacrifice a bit for him ah.well i still had my yakitori balls.so it didn't matter dat much.so after much slacking there,we left da place nearly 10pm n reached home at 11pm.syafiq went straight to bed.he was so tired.poor poor boy...yeps was an eventful national day indeed for me.owrite wanna kemas da house n after dat can siap go to da movies.yeahoooo....

2004-08-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY to all those patriotic singaporeans.hhahhaaa...i'm so looking forward for today.yeahh...coz i'll b going out later with my girl cuzzins n frens.we're gonna go to Marina Bay to go catch da fireworks.so semangat eh.hehehee..once in a yr only leii...but before dat going town first ah.so yeps i juz woke up from a longggg beauty sleep.wanted to update last night but my eyes were like begging me to totally shut n go to dreamland.
there was another death in da family yesterday..making it 2 dis wk.it was my grand-aunt also.scary isn't it...2 death straight.so my family n i went to visit da jenazah yesterday.da proceedings ended abt 12.i got changed n decided to go to work.BUT ended up at kak raudhah's house.hahahaaha...she asked me to follow to her new house at punggol.i aso was like lazy to go to work.so i'll juz show da death cert to da managers later.her house is niceeee!!i like...it's simple yet cozy.if only i had my digicam yesterday.could haf snapped so many photos of us slacking.aahahahaa...there was me,zafirah,kak raudhah n her husband abg fendi.had pizza hut delivery for lunch n watched dvd,The Love Notebook.omg!!dat crita like so touching eh.if i'm not mistaken,da movie has begun its debut in da cinemas rite?so especially da girls...go check it out.very romantic n sweett...so slacked there till abt 5.zaf's parents fetched us n went back to her place,n i slacked there.hahahaaa...gerek seh.it's been a long time i had a weekend to slack.was there till 10.30pm n i went back home.so tired..great day!like finally....hahahaaa...
i miss my bf..he's been away since saturday ni haf not met him since last wednesday.spent our first anni with my cuzzins.haahahahaa...but it's ok.not a problem.hopefully he comes back today.so envious he get to go holiday with his family.while i'm juz stuck here in singapore.
ok i tink i wrote a lot already eh.n btw it's so funny i get so many "hits" on my blog but none of u tagged on my board?saddening sehh..i know lah i rarely bloghop n neva tag on ppl's board too.ehhehee....mcm terkena balik plak.oklah enjoy ur holidays!!!!

2004-08-08T07:59:00.000+08:00

So I guess u ppl mite b wondering wad haf I been countin down da past days.n so da day has come.today marks da 1st anniversary of me n my significant other,azhar.therefore here I'd like to make a special tribute dedicated especially to him,yes my dear.it's u...

Nur Azhar Bin Kassim was such an unfamiliar name to me until I was introduced to him by Musa. Den did I know he was da guy a fren of mine had a huge crush on. We started on a I smile-u smile thingy n dat lead to a friendship.One occasion dat made us started to go out together was buying for ani her birthday present .someting like first date.hahahaa...soon after dat,da friendship we had became closer with frequent chats on msn n outings dat we plan out.from there, sparks flew all ard and created a special bond inside us.As days go by,we had da ample opportunity to know each other much better.Even though there were many obstacles dat hindered us,it was due to da special bond in us n da thing called love which held us together till now.Azhar may seem to be a very childish guy,very irritating at times.but behind all dat lies a side of him dat no one has seen except for me.he is patient, lovable,caring,manja.easier said,he has da basic qualities dat a girl wants in a guy.dat is gd enuff for me.Being together with him has not been an easy journey either but dat was neva a reason to bring us down.i appreciate his understandingness to give in n tolerate my behaviour at times.n dat is da thing dat I love abt him.I was attracted to his patience...n not forgetting his charming smile.

Dear,it's been a long n winding journey for us.Times haf been very hard,but we'll hold on.I trust in da strength of love dat u haf for me.it's strong n unbreakable like da diamond.I trust u n I trust da faith we haf in each other..n most importantly I LOVE YOU n I want da whole world to know...Here is something for u......

I smile whenever i recall
The special moments we have had
Walking always hand in hand
Through the good times and bad
Sometimes, I think it is a dream
The love you give me could not be,
But then, when you are in my arms
There's no mistake in its purity

Whether i'm with you or far away
My thoughts are always drawn to you
Like a compass needle pointing North
To a love much more than true
Of all people on this Earth
How lucky can a person be,
To have found the likes of you,my love,
With whom to share an eternity...

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY TO YOU,MY BELOVED DARL!!! LET'S KICK IN MORE APHRODISIAC IN OUR LOVE!!

p/s:dun u ppl ever get da wrong idea ok...:)

2004-08-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

juz came back from work.another crappy day....part of my august pay is gonna be deducted due to some unforseen reasons..*Geram Geram*den of all days,y muz it b today my NETS card had to b !@#$%^&*(*&^%$#%^. i was like gonna check my pay ah.den cannot....so geram man.haizz...wat to do...dis is life.ok my dear bf is away.he sms-ed me while i was working.cudn't manage to reply back.can't reply aso coz my hp prepaid is low.ok lah juz gonna keep it simple.chatting with ayuni now.after dat i tink i'll b off to sleep n go for another war shot at work tomm...till den....

aM cOuNtiNg DowN...Less DeN 24 HouRs...

2004-08-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

exactly 12 hrs after my previous entry,here i am blogging again.i had a very very rocky day today.instincts on many things came true today.my last paper sucked.i tink i'm gonna do worse off TFE.i did some studying but da best thing NONE of dem came out.yes i repeat again NONE!!i'm having a splitting headache rite now.so after dat paper,i felt even more crappier n upset.had lunch with gowri before meeting my sista,dee at tm.thanx sis..u made my day,well at least for a while.we hung out at coffee bean century square n updated each other abt our own personal lives.sat there for abt 2 hours,n den made our way.dat was when i started to feel different in da bus.i felt nauseous..the bus ride was bumpy.i tried closing my eyes but the tv mobile was blasting.i tried to control myself.i felt like as if i took da longest bus ride of my life juz now.soon after i alighted,i tried my best to make my way home as fast as possible.but i cudn't.da headache was killing me.my head was throbbing.i seriously felt like fainting.i decided to sit by da roadside.heck all those ppl who juz passed by me n look at me.it's not as if they ask whether i was fine or not.i sat for abt 10 mins.sms-ed dee...i'm juz scared dat i might juz pass out in da middle of da road n not make it home.after dat 10 mins,i braved myself to stand up n really rush back.dun wish to trouble my parents with any inconvenience.upon reaching,my mum realised dat i turned pale.i didn't want her to worry,so i juz told her i'm fine.i immediately went into my room n lied down on my bed.suddenly i had da urge to throw up.i didn't want my mum to know,so i tried making myself look as fine as possible n went to da toilet.i started vomitting.i feel a bit betta now.i tink i've had an overdosage of caffeine for this entire week.n i can feel like as if my brain muscles are so tensed.i need relaxant pills.n da greatest news of all is i haf to work morning shift tomm.ok my hands are starting to shake badly,i feel like banging my head n i need to throw up again.hopefully i'll b ok tommorrow.i dun wish to stay at home.i'll b bored to death.

2004-08-06T08:19:00.000+08:00

time is 8.20am on a friday morning.i'm having my last paper today n yet....I HAVE NOT TOUCHED A SINGLE DAMN THING!!!not even da lecture notes ok.u guys mite call me crazy.but i really haf lost da mood to study eversince da TFE paper on wednesday.it's been 2 days eversince dat paper,but i'm still feeling crappy n shitty.i've been sleeping my nites away to get myself off from all sorts of thinking.n da best thing,i haf a slightly sprained ankle to start my day with.mum was kind enuff to "betulkan" da urats.i can walk a bit,but still with a bit of limping.mum aso has been kind enuff to haf accompanied my mornings when i'm studying for my damn papers.she made fer me breakfast n gave words of motivation.
ok back to where i am...i seriously dunno how i'm gonna fair for dis ICC paper.actually it's quite an ok subject in comparison to TFE but i'm really moodless.my mind has gone bonkers.i can't actually "lift" myself from da kinda feeling i'm experiencing currently.i was so traumatised by the TFE paper dat i actually dreamt abt it.yahh!!freaky i tell u.
ok gonna get a bit sappy now.i miss my bf.it's been 2 days since i heard his voice n seen him personally.again i miss him so much dat i dreamt of talking to him in my dreams.i feel so pathetic,yah i do...really really pathetic.so dat practically sums up how i feel for the 6th of August 2004,crappy+shitty+lazy+emo+pathetic.haizz...

aM cOuNtiNg DoWn....2 MoRe DaYs..........

2004-08-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

i'M back!!i'm gonna rant everything out here....k first and foremost i'm very very crappy rite now.extremely.y??because today's paper was da worst of all...all those "studying" didn't pay off.like i was telling someone juz now,it's an immediate failure paper.i really feel crap,shitty.for those who dun know,i'm having my term tests dis wk.yah n it so sux.i even cancelled my plan to go out with zack.i really went moodless n i still am now.sitting alone at home with no one ard.no one to coax me.so da best way is to rant it out rite here.dis feeling suxz!can someone pujuk me?hahahahaa..man i sound so bitchy!
anyways my cuz appeared on suria news yesterday n berita harian newspaper today.wah famous ah dee...anyway i'm sorry to hear abt da demise of ur grandma today.semoga allah mencucuri rohnya.
i'm beginning to lose the interest 2 study 4 my last paper.no motivation.anyone care to give me some words of motivation?haahhaa..there i go again.i'm going hay wire lah.i feel spooked bout myself now.SOMEBODY SAVVVEEEE MEEEE!!!!!

2004-07-28T09:21:00.000+08:00

FELLOW BLOG READERS,I'M ON HIATUS!!!!

2004-07-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

u bastard!i hate da fact i'm living with u..when u want ur stuffs done,u get nice to me.after dat u treat me like shit!!!i didn't disturb u at all...i didn't deserve those kicks on my upper hands from u,u asshole!now dey're swollen..u happy?i know ur not coz u juz got scolded by mum n dad.u deserve it u moron!!it was never wrong for me to scream for dem.u kicked me..wad do u tink i am?a doll which u can juz do anything with?fuck all those guys who're like dat!!!!who're juz like him.after getting something dat dey want/need from a girl,dey juz turn her off juz like dat.
girls are not toys ok.in fact dey're more sensitive beings den the males.so shudn't u males understand dat n treat a girl da way dat dey shud b.know wad?if u guys out there juz dun c da point of being nice to girls,u guys are juz BIG LOSERS!i'm implying to all guys out there coz so far i've never seen any girl being treated fairly by da males.if all u male species can't accept wad i haf to say,den dat's practically too bad.dis is a point of view from a girl.n DIS IS MY BLOG!!!I'M FREE TO BLOG WAD I WANT!!

2004-07-23T20:22:00.000+08:00

*yawnz*am on my bro's bed rite now.1st time surfing in his room.my next target will be da kitchen n den da toilet.yeshh!!!i so lurrrrvvvee da wireless connection.neways been quite some time dat i updated my blog.been so bz with my FYP stuffz.well managed to scrape thru PR2 juz now.alhamdulillah....next wk onwards will b bz bz bz again.wad can i blog??hmmm..my mind's blank lah.too tired n shagged.oh my stupid TFE lecturer called home juz now saying dat i didn't take my test.like duh!!i was on MC u doink!cannot wait izzit?next wk i go take ah b4 he gives me a big fat zero.been doing ok for my tests so far.juz hoping i will maintain pass for term test.speaking of it which will b in 2 WKS TIME!!!!n i have not opened my books as yet.ahahahaa...manzz next wk gonna b hectic.need to balance time for FYP n term test.wun be hoping much for term tests.as long as it is a pass i'll b happy enuff.
term test timetable suck!!really suck to da core..but guess juz haf to bear with it for a while ah.been skipping a few lessons again dis wk n yesh i got my 1st warning letter of da semester.crap lah...only lectures..but i kinda expected it.ahahahaa..somebody is so proud dat he hasn't got any warning letters for his entire school life in TP.rite dear??hmmpphh..anyway i juz wanna thank my dear for being such a sweetie da entire wk.he has truly been understanding throughout my complex situation dis wk and has been driving me home practically everyday n at times picking me up to school.he n his FYP mates haf been such a great help to my FYP.n his frens n him cheer me up everytime i meet dem.dey sure know i am stressed with my FYP.n to my gurlz,we survived dis wk!!!!!yeay!!!we did everything we cud on our own!!!dun u gurlz tink we deserve a treat for ourselves??up for starbucks/coffee bean gowri n liza??hehehee...
k my eyes are shutting very very soon.i really really lack of sleep.like gowri said juz now,i'm gonna sleep my ass off tonight.tomorrow's another long day at work.i'm working while some ppl haf bbqs to attend.so goooooooooddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so jeles!!!!!!!I LOVE U MY DEAR NUR AZHAR!!*hugz*

2004-07-19T15:17:00.000+08:00

deleted da last post..tink it was too emo.hahaahahaa....so those who haf actually read it,juz shuddup ok.:Pi juz got back from school.had an hour of test juz now n since was lazy to go 4 lecture,i went straight back home.after test,i went to meet up with dee,to pass my files to her so dat she can send dem over to 4PM.thanx dee....owe u one!i terjumpa someone juz now at da bus stop n we even took da same bus.hahahaa...i juz gotta say u haf grown much more tembam boy!n ur perut too...hahahaa...jgn mawrah.i dun even know if u'll come across dis blog of mine.ok feel like sleeping now...so ngantuk.*yawnz*

i'm back blogging again.after waking up from sleep,decided to go out.very bingit lah sit at home.initially wanted to go to suntec,but later dear called wanting to go out with me.so he fetched me at abt 6.15pm n off we went to pasir ris park since we cancelled da idea of going back to school.we were there for abt 2 hours,slackin n teasing each other before we headed back home.wanted to go n eat but his daddy wanna use da car to fetch his sis.tomm will b meeting my fyp mates.need to do something bout da FYP.rite liz??deep deep shit!dat's it fer da day of 19 July 2004.

*once again thanx dear(u know 4 wad)*

2004-07-19T00:03:00.000+08:00

something dat i quote from Mas.
"Trouble is a part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person that loves you enough chance to love you enough"- Dinah Shore

*credits to Mas*

2004-07-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

i'm happy!well at least for once...i "graduated" from my so called course at my workplace with flying colours.alhamdulillah..berkat kecekalan hatiku sendiri.but sadly there are certain colleagues of mine who dun seem happy with my fast achievement.all i can say is i can't b bothered..i worked hard for it ok!i did my studying n memorising though i'm having certain troubles.i pushed dem aside..i deserve da flying colours.self motivation helped me thru it too.so anyway it's been 2 days in a row dat i took a cab to work.now my pocket is really burnt.i c a big hole in it.frankly i haf no mood to go work ah.but den it's a responsibility.so haf to force myself out of my laziness.like i said self motivation helps.but at times i feel stoopid to be motivating my ownself.how lame can my life get.
work was ok juz now...had lunch with zack n jun ming.n since there was lotsa time left during my break,i went down to walk ard.zack joined me later.went back with him also..i didn't know he stayed somewhere nearby n never did i know we actually take da same bus home.dis colleague of mine,he's ok ah...but.................i shall not mention it here.who knows he will come across my blog one of these days.sadly we rarely share da same shift.so means lonely bus journey home :( i haf a freaking test tommorrow.thanx to ani for reminding me bout it.but know wad i feel too tired n worn out to study.something else is occupying my mind rite now.sometimes i dun wanna go to work but dat's da only way to make myself forget things for a moment.but after i end work,everything comes at one shot filling up my exhausted brains.how great....ok so i tink i wanna end da entry lah.*exhausted*

2004-07-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

i had a hard time sleeping laz nite.kept tossing n turning on da sofa yet my eyes juz can't shut.k i'm juz blogging for a while before getting ready to work.yeah in da afternoon shift today which means a late nite home.yesterday wasn't my day if i were to sum it up.i screwed up at work...firstly i was like late for 15 mins,n i had to cock up some reasons for it.actually i woke up late arh.den i made a few mistakes here n there at da counter.had to void here n there.bingit sehh...den after break when i was transferred to another counter to do gift wrapping n jacketting,i made mistakes aso.i really hate to be at dat counter actually coz i sux at wrapping n stuffs.my mind was juz not at work yesterday.it flew off somewhere.n da best thing i was actually caught day dreaming.hahhaaha...my senior caught me red handed.but she didn't scold me lah.guess she cud see i was not in da mood.
break was alone again...wad to expect since i was in mid shift.brought bekal from home n after dat went to da takashimaya food fest downstairs to buy teh tarik.needed a hot drink ah.oh btw dat food fest ends today.so i ended dat dreadful day at work at 8.30pm n headed back home since there were no plans in mind.at home was another screwed up time on da laptop.haizz..SCREWED UP DAY!!!!!
i'm hoping for a better day today for myself.n i will try to focus on my work arh.dun wanna get caught red handed again.hehehee...better finish off my entry now coz i can't stand my granny next to me screaming n whining nonsense.

*Running away from problems will not help,it'll juz make it worse.Be brave to face wad u have done.FACE REALITY!*

2004-07-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

harlooozzz!!!!today got like so many things to blog abt.met up with group members.had a discussion regarding fyp before proceeding to meet L&C supervisor.would like to thank mr david chan here(as if he reads dis) for da help..appreciate it loads.met dear for a while to pass his cd n get da microcontroller board.den after dat me,liza n gowri went to sim lim square to look for our model kit,but was not available.moved on to lavender aso to no avail.n da best thing,da kit is out of stock islandwide.damn!!!die die die...so after walking so far,we headed to liza's granny's shop at bussorah street.
n for da first time,liza SERVED US!!!!!ahahhaahhahahaa...best tauu....susah nak dapat service mcm gitu.ehehhee....jgn mawrah liza.food was nice...realllyyy!!!!compliment ur nenek tau.after da spicy brunch,we walked ard bussorah street n actually went into the Wayan Retreat Balinese Spa.My goodness...dat place is FANTASTIC!!i sure wanna go there n so does gowri n liza...rite girls??we shall do it in September yeahh...dun ferget da fabulous package yeah.we will go there.let's save pur pay.ehhehee....seriously dat is power!da spa area was very nicely decorated.so was da manicure n pedicure room.n da members area was da best!sure we are tempted to go.it's a must try.n it's like dey gonna haf da chocolate body scrub.arrrgghhhh!!!something i was looking forward too.sometimes muz act like rich tai tai.ehehehe...not always u get dis kinda experience rite.
ok ok enuff of da balinese spa...ahhahahaa...so after dat,me n gowri proceeded to bugis junction...walked ard n ogle at nice looking things.ehehhee...aimed something from topshop.not for me though..hehehe..oh yah i met imran.dis imran guy used to be from my poly.but den he was removed ah...we used to haf a close friendship ah..he's nice n all but damn freakingly possesive to da core.yeah he sure is..saw him with his gf i suppose...he still da same...short as always.ahahahahahaa...owrite gonna end here lah.crap too much.need to rest aso coz am working tomm.till da next entry!

*a simple note to my dear...iMiSS u!!*

2004-07-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

a new layout!!!been wanting to change it since a long time ago,but juz cudn't find da time.it's pretty simple..i can't bother much anyway.hahahaha...so yeps ended school early.met up with nana,n lucky us dear sent us to my homie.after dat he n his frens go dunno where lahh.so yeps me n nana chilled over at my place..ma parents were not in s'pore aso..dey went to jb.so dat leaves da maid n my granma at home.watched vcds,surf da net like no one's business n aso not forgetting teaching her maths.was suppose to leave home at abt 4+ to go to main office.one of da chief executives called me up to go there,but i was like so lazy already n thinking dat i haf to travel all da way to orchard makes me feel more lazy.so ended up at home..yeah it's like amazing coz i rarely wanna stay at home in da afternoons.nana had to go for her nite classes,so sent her till da bus stop n walked home chop chop before getting caught in da rain.test in school was ok lah juz now but doubt i'll do well in it.i forgot most of wad i study.n da breaking news for today is i failed my tcs quiz....never in my life haf i failed tcs..my 1st time!well i kinda expected it arh..i forgot dat there was a quiz on dat day..no choice but had to juz sit 4 it.so fail lorr...nvm ah it's only 5%.
i'm feeling worried bout something rite now...extremely worried.n worse i haf something to sit for tommorrow yet i'm juz bumming.lost of mood man...i'll still consider tommorow's plan for da day.....*thinks hard*

2004-07-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

yeahoooo!!!i'm surfing wirelessly now..power2...now can do so many things.can download at a speed as fast as lightning.n i can change da layout of my blog!!!!like finally...hahahaa...thanx to da power of maxonline.ehehee...k juz now went out to senkang compass point.ate at captain cook with dear.after dat got my yakitori balls...yummmy!!!!n headed home.something happened at home.damn!!!but like dear says,let's juz look forward.n so i'm looking forward to tommorrow..den again i haf a stupid test.damn!!!not studying yet...hahahahaa...c how lah..ok bye!

2004-07-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling satisfied with myself rite now.y??because i've accomplished 2 missions. (1)getting my own counter because of the confidence of colleagues ard me.(2)bein it my first time at da counter,i managed to tally the figures exactly.yesh i did it n i'm proud of myself.lunch was with suriani today.bought sliced fried fish bee hoon at lucky plaza.lunch was filling.i had a great day at work today.after work,didn't feel like going back first.so went shopping,yes again?!dis time bought chocolate digestives biscuits,snacks n toiletries from MARKS AND SPENCERS,a small book entitled love is forever at my workplace n a top from ESPRENO.there goes my kachings again.tot of getting some bling blings after my next pay.c how ah..bills come first.
yeay tomorrow i'll be getting my broadband connection n check it out..it's wireless.ahuh...so i can surf anywhere in da house..yahooo!!!no hassle of sharing with my bro.he has his own PC while i haf my own laptop to surf wirelessly.

*tomorrow 3pm..........*

2004-07-11T00:04:00.000+08:00

Lunch was alone again today..was on mid shift,so decided not to have lunch.instead walked ard to find footwear n tops.work was ok today.made somemore new friends n yeah i met my old fren too...mr abu bakar zainee..unfortunately he doesn't remember me.ahahahaa..but i do coz he was so geeky from last time till now?anyway i've been envious of lotsa things lately this wk and da past.Lemme list dem down,
I'm envious of:
(1)girls who can carry themselves off well in any type of clothing n style.
(2)girls who're able to wear MANGO tops,coz i can't.
(3)people who go thru their life such a breeze.
(4)people who're able to multi task n balance their time well.
(5)couples who walk along da road happily hand in hand.
(6)couples who seem so loving on da bus.
(7)female colleagues who always haf someone special to wait n meet dem after a hard day at work.
juz my tots............

2004-07-09T11:04:00.000+08:00

A TRIBUTE TO A SPECIAL PERSON IN MY LIFE,ADIBAH

yesh dat's me n her..adibah,she's my lovely cousin,sista,best friend,companion,partner in crime.yesh she's all of it.she plays an important role in my life.she's there when i need someone to talk to,to hear my heart's out.She's my shoulder to cry on.she's da only one who understands me deeply in n out,knowing what i tink and how i feel.Adibah has many similarities like me maybe dat explains y we are able to click well.Though we're 9 months apart,many ppl seem to tink dat we're twin sisters.we go out a lot together n meet up very often even though each of us has bz schedules.
Adibah,ur da light of my life.i can't imagine my life without a sista like u.i would haf no one to share my tots with.I'm glad u stand by me thru my ups and downs n when i'm alone.I appreciate all that u haf done for me.I will assure u dat nuthing will ever,i repeat NUTHING WILL EVER destruct dis special bond dat we built throughout these years.
Adibah,i'm proud of ur achievements so far.if no one appreciates dem,i do.I gladly say i'm proud to have u as my closest cousin cum sista.I pray that ur life journey would be smooth sailing n remember dat if u need someone to share,i'm here for u,juz as how u were there 4 me.I LOVE U SIS!!!

2004-07-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

i juz came back from my own "therapy".yes..movie treat to myself n shopping!!!!watched Mean Girls...it was a nice show...very entertaining.wanted to catch spiderman2 but decided not to.caught da 4.50pm show...oh yeah didn't go to school again today.on mc again.y am i so prone to sickness nowadays?i wonder??so after da show it was shopping time!!!yeps went ard n got myself a few stuffz.(1)ELLE lingerie (2)ROXY baby pink wallet (3)FCUK top. spend like so much today my goodness..haven't include movie tix plus my food.ok gotta curb my expenditure already.i'm gonna haf my dinner now..shall keep it short and sweeett....

2004-07-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

wow!!!been a wk since i last update...yeah been pretty caught up with school n not forgetting work.i haf loads of updates but i dunno where to start...Mmmm..ok lemme start with school.School's been ok ok lahh...mainly go to tutorials n labs...been skipping lectures a lot lately.who wants to go for lectures in da morning??hahahaa...or issit i'm juz plain lazy??hehehee..tests are upcoming next wk.hopefully i haf time to study for dem.i juz flung one juz now..let's not talk bout it..been sick for da past few days...3 days of mc!!yeshh...missed out a lot on studies u know..oh yahh guess wad??i managed to survive a 48HOURS NO SLEEP ORDEAL!!!!yeahh...i never knew i cud do dat..well it's because of my report lahh..i had to first write out my draft coz i had no pc.my laptop was under servicing...of all times...yeah den had to type it out.manzzz..so stone.dat's y i fell sick...was tired from work aso.anyway i tink i haf much to catch up in school...will be going to teach a junior engineering maths 2 on friday...she needs help lahh...hopefully i still remember my maths eh.
work....ahahahahahaa...it's been good.but quite hectic last wk since i was in da afternoon shift both weekends...kept reaching home past midnight.u know being in da retail line is quite fun..u get to meet all sorts of ppl n haf many opportunities to learn sumting new.last saturday my colleague had an encounter with dis fussy customer who insisted on getting a 10% discount..how lame can dis guy get man???it's only 10% n still wanna make noise..haahahhaa...so pitiful zack(my colleague).like it or not haf to handle da situation nicely...but after da customer left,he was cursing and swearing.hhaahahahahah....anyway zack is cuuuteee...hehehee..ooopps!!!there's another guy who's cute too at my workplace...can't catch his name ah...tak nampak tag dia...but it's a malay ah.ahahahhahaa...dear,i know u NOT jeles.haahahahaa...:Pi will still be attached to a senior for a period of one month,which is GOOODDD!!!i dun tink i can handle da counter alone.hehehee...not so confident as yet.will be on mid shift n morning shift dis wk..so it wun b dat tiring.
personal life been ok ok too...has ups n downs to go thru also be it with friends and loved ones..been able to cope so far.managed to spend some time with dear too though i was caught up with many things.grandma is here...wait did i mention dat in my previous entry?goshh i can't recall...am getting older..hahahahaaa....met up with indra iskandar shah juz now at TM before eating at Seoul Garden with Gowri.he still look pretty much da same.haahahaa..seems dat he was trying to contact me da past weeks.wadever it is dat he wants??oh yeah dropped by 4PM also last wk to pay a visit to kak sa'adah.da new centre is cool!!how i wish am still active in RSP..but it's ok i'm still a 4PM volunteer afterall.gosh i haf lab at 9am tomorrow.i swear i'm gonna haf a difficult time waking up.but will try...aite been a long entry..dat's it for now...

2004-06-30T17:27:00.000+08:00

yeyaaa...i'm back blogging.so caught up with stuffz dat i actually haf no time to update.my my...anyways it's been a hectic wk so far..first wk of work was ok...not bad...queue was super freaaaakinnggg long coz da store had their own sale which by da way ends today.tank goodness!!!!oh yeahh i served glenn ong on saturday can u believe it?haakzz....actually it's not such a big deal but yeah dat was da first time i met him in person.aahahahhaa...was quite smartly dressed i can say.u know da disadvantage of dis job is dat u haf to stand for da whole 8 hours.tiring u know...was on afternoon shift dat day n i reached home abt midnight.da first thing i looked for was my bed.ahahahahaa....sunday was not dat bad ah..working here makes me reflect on lotssa things...seriously...and aso at da same time i can know what's hot in da leisure business.heheheee...colleagues haf been great so far..i was attached to a sweet girl named zurina..she's my senior at work,but junior my age...geddit??hahahhaa...she's patient..u know i can b quite slow n blur at some things...yeah she tot me alot...i tink dis wk i'll be at da counter alone..i'm not sure...haven't check my roster yet.
n yeahh liza will be working at da orchard library..yeayyy!!!!somehow i'm as excited as her.ahahahaha....dunno y aso..who knows we cud bump into each other??been doing nuthing much nowadays..juz shop a bit for clothes n accessories.on some days went out with dear also.thank god he's driving...tak penat naik bus.ahahaahahaa....dlm kereta bleh tido kan...i've been feeling very exhausted nowadays after school..so i spent a lot of time at home..been skipping morning lectures nowadays.ahahaha...sleepy ahh...so i'd rather sleep.ahhahahaa...skipped one tutorial aso...well will not do dat again...i will not.hahahahaha...now i got company in class already since liz is in my class.hehehhee...bleh blajar sama2 eh.hehehee...oklah i gotta ciaoz already.wanna go out n meet dear..*wink wink*

2004-06-24T23:51:00.000+08:00

today a happy chapter unfolds back into my life.which is greatlahh..hopefully it'll last....hahahaa...anyway today skipped school coz i woke up late,n kinda planned out da day before on not going.anyways yah woke up at nearly 12pm,den called dear up.still sleeping...so yeah i slack2 till he call n we took a very lonnngg time to decide where to go.ended up at town..hahahaa..manz i'm gonna get sick of orchard very very soon.back to my story den,we set off to breeks first..so hungry mans..had our baked pasta n our mocktails..yummmyy!!!!after da filling lunch,we went ard orchard..i wanted to get a bag.so kita pusing2....had 3 choices in mind...tot of buying 2 of dem,but den i set myself on one only lah,budget...yeahh so i got a LEVIS bag.i'm eyeing on da surfbabe bag too...maybe shall get dat next wk??hahahaaha...we'll c we'll c if i still haf cash.yup so thanx dearie for giving me ur opinions while buying...n of coz he liked da new bag coz it's of his fav colour.bluehhh...so after tired shopping ard,we sat down for a while n after dat went back home..tired leh my legs.yeahh it was great great great!!!fantabulous!!!ok so i shall get to sleep after dis...rite after downloading pics from shymm..work calls tommorrow morning at 9.15am.ciaozz..

I LOVE SOMEONE!!!U KNOW WHO!!!!

2004-06-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

a summation of today..GREAT!!!thank u for everything dear....needed dat "boost" from u.owrites so got my new passbook,simple shoes for work n presentation,passport photo.all checked n ready for friday.mann..i'm gonna haf a damn hectic wk.gotta juggle academic stuffs,training with da girls + work!!!hoping hard dat i can cope.fyi,my group will be having a performance next wk on friday but i actually dunno where.ahahahaha...will update once i get da info.ciao cinchow...

*As time goes by,my days will turn out better each day*

2004-06-23T00:38:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a much better day.da person whom i've been missing loads finally met up with me...we FINALLY talked things out.glad we did so...i needed to put a stop to wadever dat's been going on.thanx dear..n i'll hold on to wad u said ok...ok enuff of all these...been dragging so long..anyway gd news!!!my cuzzy dee was accepted to continue her studies at ite tamp.waaawww...so happy for her u know.dee,study hard ok.hehehee...school was ok lah juz now...tink muz get used to it liaoo being da only local.hahahaa...textbook was freaking thick n expensive ah.muz check my timetable for later.got a a few stuffs to do today.so yeah hopefully can complete all today.i'm currently like wad waiting for da dye on my hair to stick onto da hair.hahahaa...i dunno whether it'll work or nots...if it doesn't den too bad lah.

2004-06-21T22:26:00.000+08:00

school started today..wasn't dat bad ahh...but da bad news was i'm da only local student in da class.damnz!!!but it's ok i'll survive lahh...so yeah met up with gowri during lt...and after dat with liz n kiat.so at da plaza saw helzie,fazly n murne..all of us went for lunch at kfc..had a good time there..after dat gowri met me n liza..she had her lunch and off we went to sim lim.so it was not gd at sim lim...after dat liz went to her granny's stall whereas i n gowri went to tekka mall...gowri did her threading..it was my first time seeing it..was quite funny actually..ehehehe...but it was nicely done...after dat it was shopping!!!yeahh..looked for bangles n tops...walked ard little india..after dat went to mustafa..i shopped so much..ahahah...bought food which gowri recommended from there.got my stationeries...bought hair dye n nail polish..after bz bz shopping,we went to buy chappati for our families...n after dat headed home.reached home abt an hr ago...

i did not haf a gd feeling today..so i decided to call someone..
called his hp 4 times,but to no avail.
still i did not feel gd...
called his home,mum asked me to call back..so dat means he was home.
but never pick up my calls...well well...haizz..
my intention was juz to tanya khabar..
but denn...nvm lah..i know he's fine.well looks like he juz called me..shud i...shud i not??i dunnooo...i feeel like crying.

2004-06-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

today...treated myself to a hearty breakfast..went to work.nopes its not my official day working as yet.but yah juz went there...so after dat rotted at home.watched tv...kept thinking of someone...wondering y there was no phonecall..but it's ok.heart pain ah but den it's ok...i'm fine..so anyways..we went out to celebrate father's day juz now...went to beach road for dinner.n of coz had sup tulang.yummmyy!!!after dinner,went back..yeah i'm quite tired actually..coz i'm still sick.i know da most accurate reason to y i've been not feeling well...but u guys go figure it out.
school's starting tomorrow...n shuckz i'm still sick...damn!!!well i'm looking forward to it..yeps so shall update tomorrow den.

Someone is still in my mind..i'm still missing him...
My heart is crying for him..haizz..

what i gotta do to make u love me?
what i gotta do to make u care?

2004-06-20T14:40:00.000+08:00

a song for the person i've been missing throughout da week..........how i wish dat someone knows....

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

2004-06-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

timecheck 11.50pm...i juz got back home from da RSP volunteers gathering.phhewww...i'm so tired.gathering was awesome!!was held at da bedok jetty.dey pitched a tent there..well only a few were overniting.i wanted to but...i'm not feeling dat well.i build myself up to go for da gathering juz now coz i know it'll be like a last time for me to meet all of dem.i was feeling a bit feverish in da afternoon,but i kuatkan semangat..luckily dee was there.neways me n dee got a bit sesat juz now,but managed our way there..n guess who i saw??my old flame..ahahahaa...Syed Ali.saw him at da eastern lagoon food centre..he was on his bike.we juz exchanged smiles there.he never seem to change anyway.ahahaha...so yeps met da rest there first to get our food.sabrina missed me sooo much.ahahahaha...she so semangat with her video cam.yeps so got our food,headed towards da tent area.so there was kak sa'adah,asryna,boy,syafiq,sabrina,jai,diana,izzati,halil and hashim.all of us sat in da tent...had our fair share of food..n after dat came da most touching part.kak sa'adah broke da news dat she wun b in charge of RSP anymore...she'll be moving on to da BITE program..n so dere will b a new social worker in charge of RSP soon.n i aso had to break da news of not being in da next phase due to work...n suprisingly,izzati n dee aso will not be in da next phase...most probably we'll juz help out n visit dem when there's time.so dere were we singing to songs...all of us got addicted to "the reason" by hoobastank.so before me,diana n kak sa'adah left,we took some photos..will upload dem once i combine pix from my digicam,hashim's n diana's.we exchanged hugs...i felt sad to be leaving RSP..i'm gonna miss everyone of dem...sabrina hugged me tight enuff not to let me go.most of dem told me dat dey were gonna miss me...aww....i felt so touched..i never knew da bond was so strong in dem.well i might be leaving RSP for da time being...but i hope i'll b back in da next 2 phase if time permits.But of course i will always remain a 4PM volunteer.dat's for sure..
being in 4PM has taught me a lot of things...i grew to be more responsible and at da same time learn more about da surrondings around me...especially to be more aware of happenings...4PM is da place where i've met many unique souls who are now my frenz..my special frens whom i'll always remember and treasure.It has been a great experience being in 4PM especially RSP.i would like to thank all of dem for making my time there worthwhile..i wanted to cry juz now while i was hugging everyone..but i tink i'm left with no more tears....oh btw my frens,more appropriately da girls realised dat i haf lost weight...which is true..i tot it cud not be noticeable...yeps actually it's true i've been losing weight..i know i know...i'm supposed to gain weight instead...but uc keadaan merubah segalanya...it's difficult to find appetite to eat when there's somethin in ur mind bothering...BUT i'll try n gain weight after dis..i'll eat more healthy food instead of junk.hehehehee....

i felt a bit different today....hmmm..dee dun laugh.i know dat u know bout it.:P
i still miss dat someone though...weird but true...

2004-06-19T12:09:00.000+08:00

kinda juz got back from sending my bro to his weekend class.n here i am yet blogging again...tink i'm blog addict today??hahaah...i dunnoo..i didn't get enuff sleep laz nite which leads me to insufficient rest which again leads me to officially being sick today.i'm still pending as to whether i'll be going to da gathering today...but most probably i'll go coz it'll be my laz time meeting dem...it's so sad to leave 4PM.but work has called...haizzz...tink i'm gonna rest first..n decide later..till den...

2004-06-19T03:22:00.000+08:00

it's 3.20am rite now n I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!dat's y i'm here blogging.da anticipated call finally "came" at abt 2.45am....BUT it ended less den a minute. :( maybe i shudn't haf anticipated it at all...wad to do..dat person actually forgot abt calling...yeah tink i'm really feeling pathetic rite now.hahaaha...i even feel like such a loser.haakZ..i dunno lah.sometimes i realise dat i shud not pay much attention to my emotions coz it'll juz disturb me more...but yet da more i dun pay attention to it,da more worse i feel.maybe someone doesn't see it...it's ok *tries to comfort oneself* i can try to get thru it alone.u know like da malay saying goes,kalau mati nanti,kat kubur sendirian jugak kan.hahahaaha..i know dat's lame.but heck ah...

i really really miss someone badly.BUT.......................
dat perception mite change??i dunno again...*stares blankly*

2004-06-19T01:43:00.000+08:00

i keep waking up from sleep...can't sleep properly coz i'm anxiously anticipating a call from someone who told me he'd call back.but it's already 1.45am rite now n still no sign of him.maybe he will not call...i dunno.i had a lot of things to tell him actually.even tot of asking him out...maybe it's true like wad i mentioned yesterday,he will not call me after reading it.sad but true...haizz...

2004-06-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

i'm fr3akingly exhausted!!yeahhh...i juz got back home from escape theme park...weeeee!!!had a jolly good time there.get to shout,laugh out loud..haahahhaa..cool!!the girls were a great bunch..aahahaa..asked someone to follow but claimed dat it was kental to go.ahahahha...wadever..i'm too tired to blog actually..but hey i'm bloggin for a special reason now....my timetable is cool n I GOT A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!WEEEEEE!!!!!yeps be starting work next wk.hopefully i'll be able to balance both school with work.to those who're curious to where i'm working,i suggest.....u find it out urself lahh..ahahahhaa..ok dat's it.my bed's calling.gonna haf a super early nite.Gd Nite EveryOnE!!!

I miss someone loads again today.
Does he miss me too??God knows...hehehee...

2004-06-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

i juz told someone off nicely...i dunno how is dat person gonna take it.i feel guilty for saying wad i said juz now...but i hope dat person will truly understand wad i've been feeling so far.i dun want dat person to tink dat i'm simply dissing him/her off.i do it for a good reason.i hope he/she sees it dat way.i've been feeling miserable da past few days due to some incidents occuring around me.i juz wanna say sorry to him/her if i hurt his/her feelings.I TOTALLY APOLOGISE.....

i miss someone again today...
i will miss him till i get to meet him.......

2004-06-17T00:20:00.000+08:00

It’s been a hectic day.i juz came back from a big family gathering at Han River.There were 28 of us juz now.my gosh...ahahaha...5 families were there..but it was fun n great!!had a very hearty dinner.ate all we can.n da best thing it was free!!!yeahh..my aunt blanja us all as a gesture of thanx to us for helping her out during her son's wedding.though only 5 out of 11 families were there,it was very "homey"..da others were basically on holiday.
Before meeting da others at Han River,I went out with my cuzzin to talk things out.Something kinda been happening around,but shall not elaborate here.Dee,I know ur a strong girl.U have dat inner strength dat I used to possess.my advice is hold on to it..never let it go or else u'll b like me now.hahahaa...u get wad I mean rite?June's not been a gd month so far.I was telling dee dat problems keep arising after one another.maybe it's true..it’s retribution.i dunnoo...Da talk I had with Dee at coffee bean made me reflect about many things.i tink it's time for me to build my inner self back.i'm going to pick up back wadever I used to possess in me.things haf made me change a lot n I know I'm not my old self.i miss da way I was last time.i miss da way I used to handle complications.i suddenly haf grown to b a soft-hearted human.i know in some ways it is gd to be like dat,but dere are disadvantages to it too.it's ok...slowly I would like to turn back to my normal self in some areas.dee I'm sure u know wad I mean.i'd need ur help ok?insyallah I will succeed in motivating myself back.
Well without realizing,school's gonna re-open soon n I'm so sad I'm not gonna bein da same class as Liz.*sobz*nvm liz hope we haf some similar lectures ok??i hope with school re-opening,things will turn out better den usual.am looking forward to school!n maybe work?i dunnoo..ahahhaa..we'll c,we'll c......

anyway i miss someone rite now..loads... but i'll withstand it..

2004-06-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

it's 3.15am rite now n i juz woke up.haahaa..slept too early.so here i am blogging.Mmmm...da wedding on sunday was a blast!!yeahh..will post pics up too.it was so tiring dat day dat i totally knocked out once i reached home.n da best thing i had da whole house to myself.so monday,dear came over supposedly with breakfast,but there was none.hahaahaa...i continued sleeping once he came over.hahahaa..he was so bored dat he actually disturbed me to wake up..uurrghhh!!!so i had to n we ended up watching malay vcd.it was quite hilarious yet merepek.after dat got ready to go out n dat was abt noon.went to town for my job thingy.things went pretty ok lah i guess.oh nana followed us.we headed to far east for late brunch till abt 5+.walked ard till 6.30pm.nana had to go to school already.me n dear were already feeling so sleepy.so decided to go home.luckily he didn't drive,or else i dunno wad will happen.yeps reached home abt 7.caught my 7pm chinese serial..n aso da 9pm.after dat i went to sleep.now i feel like sleeping back.ok gd bye!!

2004-06-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

am at my cuzzy's place rite now.been a hectic day..getting ready for my abg sedara's wedding tomm...manzz been hell..haahahaa...with all da kids ard...so kecoh man.but it's fun..such a nice gathering.been here for 2 days already...tomm i'm going back!!yeayyy!!i mishh my bed.hehehe...well looks like something's been happening here.well to his ex,like i said already,i do not wish to interfere.i really dunno whether he blogeed on ur tagboard or nots.it'd b better if u guys talk personally to clear matters.hopefully things turn out well...it's juz a suggestion though.anyway...days been great so far.juz now i had a spin with dear aso.hehee...we went to pasir ris park fer a while..den after dat had late lunch at da airport.sempat sempat slalu.hehheehe...
Hmmm...i got a job offer yesterday.i'm still thinking as to whether i shud sign da contract on monday...well,it's a weekend job n it pays quite well....$6/hr + uniforms provided..i dun haf a problem with it..but rite now da main prob lies with my mum.she wud b so scared dat working mite affect my studies..but thinking again,it's my last semester!!!!who don't wanna graduate rite??haiyahhh...tink i'll tok to my dad later..hopefully he gives da green light...manzz i'm like a bit stresed out..hahhahaa...anyway slowly day by day,problems are getting lesser by day...which is great!!:)hopefully dear can fetch me tomm to send my bro to his wkend class..if not it's ok lahh...there's still a ting called cab.ahahahaa...ok shall stop for now.ciaozz!!!!*smilez*

2004-06-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday was great..went for a spin with my dear...he fetched me n we went ard...familiarising himself with da roads..went to east coast,n den to pasir ris...wanted to wash car but did not coz da weather seemed not dat gd.after dat we went to fetch musa n his gf nini at SGH.at first we were kinda unsure of da route...but me being a walking street directory,i directed him da way there.cool!!i tink when i can drive,i'll haf no difficulties recognising da roads.hehehe...so yeps after fetching dem,we went to eat at banquet china square.ate again.b4 dat i ate already at pasir ris..but anyway musa n nini bought so much food.me n dear shared food coz both of us were really full already.had fishball noodles which was not nice..but da carrot cake n popiah which nini n musa bought were nice..sat dere for quite some time..laughed our hearts out n den we went back.dear cud drive da car well i can say..i was quite impressed.hahaahaa...he doesn't seem like a guy who juz passed.hahahaa..waddeverr...

2004-06-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

another day of rain with no shine..though it was raining,i went out..to da library..needed some peace..da library was a gd place.did my readings till evening.den went to parkway parade..did some grocery shopping for myself.luckily i asked mum for money.uc da best way to de-stress is to eat n eat n eat...especially junk.yeps so after much junk shopping,i went back.my bro is in hospital right now..he dislocated his shoulder.u know in times like dis,when u need someone to cry on,there's no one..can b quite sad.but we haf to be strong..dun we.ok dat's it.

2004-06-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

today 8th june 2004.......a day dat i will never forget.da day full of rain..no shine.

2004-06-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

tot for da day..if given a day which u deem as special,wud u want to spend it with someone special too?but wad if dat person juz finds it a normal day & MAYB tinks nuthin of it..wad wud happen?maybe juz celebrate it alone..it wud b owrite right?i mean wads da use celebrating it with someone else?hmmm..i dunoo....life..can b cruel at times.
it has not been da 1st time...neither has it been da second.well tinking of it haunts da mind.someday mite go crazy.dun b suprised if to be found at da mental hospital.
anyway...harry potter was great...u guys shud go catch it.worth every single cent.u know if ur feel bored or wad,dis movie can bring life to u fer a moment.ok dat's it..

2004-06-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

YEAHHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!My baby passed his TP!n now he can drive already.....so so happy for him..dum di dum di dum :)....

2004-06-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

haf there been a point of time in ur life where u dun realise dat u burst out of anger without realising it.things which are not meant for ppl to know suddenly become known n because of dat u keep feeling worse leading ur life every single day.u haf to put a facade to conceal everything dat's happening in ur life..maybe it's true wad ppl say when ur angry u dun realise dat wad u say will hurt other ppl's feelings.u only of ur own feelings..but wad if all these while u spared a thots for others but abandoned ur own feelings?how does it feel?n maybe ppl dun c u doing dat..dey mite think dat u are selfish...dat's life isn't it.sometimes it's miserable knowing dat ppl who're close to u are near..yet so far.n due to dat,many things could possibly change.u know ppl always tend to think dat i'm a very straight forward person..i'll tell a person off directly if i dun like something about him/her.i might haf a laser mouth but yet little do ppl know dat i try my best to keep things dat are not supposed to be known of me.i can haf a very sharpful tounge.dat's y things dat mite hurt ppl i juz keep it to myself..i rather it hurt me.sadly,no one knows or understands.
Everybody is special in me be it friends,relatives,family,boyfriend etc etc...dey are a gift from god to me..i try my best to try understand every single one of dem.i'm not perfect n i know at times i do talk bad bout dem.but dat's nature..i try to learn from mistakes i made..n i hope dey all too..Life is unpredictable............

2004-06-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

today was grocery shopping day..hahahaaha..yesh i went to ntuc fairprice alone to do grocery shopping.was kinda bored since da whole family was out.so decided to get some food for myself...it feels great to be going out alone sometimes.but anyway i haf not met my dear fer quite a few days aso..but its okay lah eh..he always proclaims himself bz.hahahaaa...so dere i was buying cheese pizza,instant mee goreng and ski yogurt..yummmyy...oh btw da cheese pizza dat i bought is delicious..u all ought to try.it's called quickie pizza.rotted at home after dat...slept for a while..my family came back at abt 10 juz now...wahhh dey really enjoy going out.my 17 yr old bro bought so many stuffs..he says it's for school...ahahaa..biasalah budak2 baru nak jejak poly.excited betul.currently i'm chatting with my dear...tomm i'll be going to first lady to get a new pantsuit..can't wait!!ehehee..owrite dat's it fer today...

2004-06-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

PiXz uP!!Enjoyyy...

2004-06-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

kinda like juz got back..& as promised,here i am blogging away b4 i hug my bantal bushuk to sleep.owrite so where shall i start?ok juz now went to celebrate syafiq's birthday..first we all went to parkway parade to survey for his present.lucky him..gonna get a GAMEBOY ADVANCE.walauwee..i remember when i was abt his age,all i got was a mere educational game.kids nowadays,so lucky.so after surveying,all of us were deciding as to whether we shud eat at swensens or east coast lagoon food village.after much tots,we followed da latter.had a great spread of food juz now n yeah i'm feeling so bloated.food was delicious..yummmyyy!!!!so anyway back to my bz days laz week..
On Monday & Tuesday,i had to go to school to do my dialog 4 da siglap sec presentation..was in school da whole 2 freaking days...n finally da da came on Wednesday.n da best thing..i didn't sleep da nite b4 becoz i had to finish up doing powerpoint slides n da dialog.Presentation went very well...Siglap sec kids were quite shy at first,but managed to be quite sporting after i crack some lame conversations.hahaaha...but it was great!after dat presentation,i was back in school again..dis times to rehearse for ennovation workshop which was gonna be held on thursday,friday n monday.i was quite not ready for dis event,cos i had to be da emcee n i'm not used to it yet...n furthermore think of dis..i haf to host over 300 secondary school students..omg!!but i was up for da challenge n so there i was doing an excellent job with my other 3 ambassadors.friday's ennovation workshop,i decided to help out because my secondary school students were coming down..yeahh..it was hella good time with dem.c no matter wad i'll always remain an ex geylang methodisian at heart.my dear had such a big headache with dem...ahahhahahaa....sorry dear,but dat's how we're...after da workshop,i immediately rushed down to my aunt's house for a kenduri arwah.n there i managed to get henna designs done on my hands,courtesy of Cik Ana...yeahh...
Saturday...my sis or more like my kakak sedara was gonna be solemnised.i cudn't wait for da event man.woke up early..got ready to go there.omg!!she wasss sooooooooooooo JAMBU!!!looked so different!cudn't even recognise her in da first place...da mak andam sure did a wonderful job in dolling her up.abg fendi(her husband now) looked very nervous..hahahaa..but thankfully he did a great job when he lafaz during da akad nikah...it was only once ok!!fuiyooo....so da happy event went on n on..da happy couple were bz posing for their wedding photos...while da others all went down to eat.food was gd..gathering was great!it's been a long time since da whole big family gathered..i was pondering...laz time it used to be our uncles n aunties getting married...n we all being da anak sedaras will be so enthusiastic.rite now it's da cousins getting hitched.how time flies...in 2 wks time,adibah's bro will be married..fooohh!!i hope even though each of dem are married,da ties btwn us as cousins will still remain.SO anyway back to where i was...i left da place at abt 6.dear fetched me n we went back together...how sweet..heehhee...managed to spend some time with him.felt good!
Sunday..was da sanding.it was such a bz day..seriously..many guests came.me n my other cuzs became kendarats fer da day...was great!but at abt 2+ we cabut already....we follow go to da guys side reception...it was held at tepak sireh restaurant...da place was nice BUT DA SERVICE SUXZ TO DA MAX!!!!!!!serious!!can u believe it...we had to actually wait for 30mins for drinks to b served...n da best thing,we ended up being hungry coz da food not cooked yet..lame siahh...was so fed up dat we went back immediately after so tired of waiting.once we came back,all of us were practically gobbling our food,cos we're so freaking hungry...we never ate since morning seh...n to think we could taste good food there..so stttttoooppppppiiidddd!!but anyway cudn't help it lah hahh...but nonetheless,da day went smoothly n ended well.of coz i wudn't wanna miss da chance snapping photos.hahahaa...i'm gonna miss my sis.she's a wife to a great man now,n hopefully their marriage lasts eternally..insyallah.
so basically dat's it..i cut my story a bit short coz i'm like damn sleep liao.will post wedding pictures soon when i haf uploaded dem.In da mean time,enjoy ur vesak day holiday!

P/S: Miss u banget dear benut!!

2004-06-01T16:45:00.000+08:00

phewww...finally everything's over.from my siglap secondary presentation to my beloved sis wedding.one whole stretch of da wk!!!my my..i am so shagged!but hey it was fun...today i can relax and enjoy as it's my bro's birthday.actually i'm going out soon.will put in a long long long entry tonight yah..so stay tuned!!!:P

2004-05-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

came across da quizilla website..n decided to try one of da tests..hahaa...funny though.i'm feeling a bit sick rite now.i dunno y..*ponders*Neway today i had a great time out with my lil broz n my dear.my mum was in jb while my dad had to work afternoon shift..so PARTY TIME!!hahhaa.nahh..actually we went out to suntec area there.i was asked by my mum to bring syafiq out,so dat he duzn't know dat my mum went to jb.ahahaa..how smart can my mum get?but anyway syafiq was thrilled to go out coz he knew my beloved dear was following us.yeps so we headed to suntec city to haf lunch first at BK.n YESSSS!!!i bought da SHREK cushion!so cuteee...my dear got one too..so we haf a matching pair.*smilez*den waited for hisham to come..he came with a girl whom i dun know of her existence..ahaahaa..her name was shima i tink.hehee..ok la da gal,not bad.but i tink my bro's taste in girls has drastically deteriorated.aahahahaa...sorry bro,but it's da truth!did get to talk to her here n dere.after eating,i asked hisham to bring syafiq walk2 first coz me n dear wanted to get him a hot wheels car.syafiq was actually supposed to choose btwn going to da arcade or getting a toy.he had a seriously hard time choosing coz he of coz wanted both.but hey dis sista of his tak sampai hati ok...bought fer him da toy aso.came as a suprise fer him.he liked it though..tank god!thanx dear fer helping to choose.
so rite after dat,we proceeded to marina square to play arcade.play hard for quite some time.as soon as we were done,we didn't know where to go.so ended up going to esplanade,whereas hisham sent shima back.yeps sat at esplanade fer a while,n den headed home shortly after receiving a call from my mum saying dat she's back.well my dear is sick too..so betta go home lah.i hope he's feeling owrite now.yeaps heaps of fun juz now..never wanted it to end,but as da saying goes..gd things muz come to an end rite?hhahahaa...so does dis happy post.

~I LOVE U MY DEAR BENUT @ NUR AZHAR~

2004-05-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

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2004-05-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

I'm tirreeddd!!Been not updating much lately..such a lazy bum.currently blog hopping n waiting fer my darl's call.life been's great over da wk,though dere were a few conflicts here n dere..but hey da skies are clear already.woohoo..actually i haf nothing much to blog abt..i've juz been bumming ard at home.holy shitz i haf so many presentations next wk..gosh da lecturer wants me to be an emcee for da upcoming ennovations workshop!manz..i'm not dat confident in doing it.i can crap a lot..but to deliver facts is so out of da qn.we'll c how lah eh..will update again when i feel like it.ahhaaha..in da mean time enjoy da new changed background song!!YEAH!!

2004-05-18T13:53:00.000+08:00

*Yawnz*I'm waiting for adibah's call rite now.Going to 4PM with her.anyway i was surfing thru friendster juz now n i came across back my secondary school frens.Plus bulletin boards which were talking bout relationships.I suddenly reminisced da times in Geylang Methodist Secondary.yeps dat's where i was schooling b4.i was always in a group of 4.we were da only express stream malay/muslim girls there.there was me,natasha,munirah n shakina.wherever we go,wadever we do,we're always together.even in class we sit near each other.we suck in studies but we excelled in bitchin.yeah we did.haaha..all those tight short skirts,detentions n other naughty things we did made us so known in school.but da funny thing was we excel in bitchin but we HATED guys.yeahh we did.we can flirt like mad with dem but to get into a relationship is no-no.dats y we were single n all.but when it came to upper secondary,more like during da sec 4 period,somehow we slowly developed a liking fer guys.weird huh?maybe it was da hormones changing.ahaahahaha..so yeps one of da girls got into a so called relationship w/o telling us n we kinda dissed her off.
it took a while for us to accept it.maybe it's because we're always together..even go to da same tuition centre.ahahahaa...tuition centre..*ponders*.well dat was da place dat i met dis guy,A.he was cute n all..we started dating,going out but hey things didn't work out.luckily i wasn't in any BGR with him.n to think of it,my girl frens helped me to get closer with him.ahahahaa...c we're weird.
Talking bout relationships,sometimes i wonder to how much of an extent does it really work out well.I myself haf been in 1 unofficial relationship(n it's not with A) n 2 official relationships.all 3 relationships haf a deep impact on me.seriuosly dey do.My 1st unofficial relationship began in mid sec 4.n my girl frenz didn't know bout it till we went to our separate tertiary institutions.ahhahaa..but anyway my 1st relationship was a great one.he was my cousin's fren.well to do,smart,respectful of others n good looking.Faiz...u were a great soul,companion..but GOD loves u more den i n ur parents do.It's such a great loss to me dat ur gone to b with god,but den dis is life.aku redha dgn pemergianmu.so dat's y i call it an unofficial relationship coz i was not with him dat long either.Those reading dis,dun feel sad ok.Uc such incidents make u stronger in life.*smilez*
Ok so my 2nd relationship,which is my 1st official one only happened abt 2 yrs after dat.It took me a long time to get over it.N furthermore at dat point of time i was undergoing major changes in my life.*takes a sip of drink*yeps n so my next boyfriend was a guy named Hairi.He's a nice guy with concepts n good looks.Being with him taught me to be a more patient person den i was b4.hey my temper cud be worse den a dragon's k.hahaaa..so dat was one particular thing dat i learned abt myself.but sadly da 1 n 1/2 yrs of relationship was a bit offside n there was no love in it.mayb there was but not enuff.n as da saying goes,cinta tak boleh dipaksa.so it's better to let go rite?so yeps another wasted relationship.But den i'm glad we're still frenz on talking terms n my bond with his cousin n aunt was not affected.Here i would like to credit hairi for having me changed to b a better person.Thanx pal(if ur ever reading dis)!!
N so after 6 months of singlehood,i was introduced to a very special person in my life rite now.Its my 3rd relationship n i hope it goes on and on and on.Azhar,da guy whom i never tot would be a part of me.He was a normal fren whom i initially regarded as a bro.But i guess frequent outings n chats changed dat perception of mine.His smile captured my heart,it makes me swoon over him.He had a boyish look aso which i like!hahaha..It has been 9 months of relationship with him n we're still going strong.I can't deny dat dis relationship with him has been one of da toughest because there were too many obstacles which hindered us.But alhamdulillah,we ventured it together n managed to overcome dem.This relationship i'm going thru is beautiful n full of love.He made me realise da meaning of true love.Yes u did my dear..though i've never said it to u.Azhar made me a much better person den da previous.Because of him i grew to b a girl who is of more sense n i never get sick of loving him more n more each day.Dis love is sincere n pure only for U.U haf been da GREATEST n MOST AMAZING partner i ever had in my entire life.We shall ignore da bad things dat ppl talk n we shall ignore jealous individuals who r not happy with da fantastic life we share together.
Yeps so dat's basically it.amecam tink can write a book eh?hahaha...here i am telling part of my life story because i wanna share dem with all of u.who knows u cud learn one or two lessons out of dem.ehehhee..owrite i gtg already.Love all,serve all...

2004-05-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

Yesss!!!!U've seen it!i haf been cruel to my hair n snipped it off!*evil laughs*.da weather seriously has made me come to a forced decision to cut my hair.i can't stand it!so goodbye to da long hair..n here comes a new me.n i tink i look younger too...hahahaaa*sinister laughter*thanx to dear who accompanied me to go cut my hair.my my!HE had to wait fer quite long...but hey it's nothing compared to free breakfast rite dear?hehee...morning..me,HIM n my bro went to changi village to haf our nasi lemak breakfast..yummmyy..den after dat proceeded to parkway parade.dey wanted to play pool.i got my awaited caramel jelly frappucino from starbucks.den went to cut my hair..hahaha..hey at least my mum likes my hair..n so does my dear!akakhaahaha..i feel so free..can feel da wind blowing.no more hassle of tying up my hair..n i tink i can dye my hair soon!!yahhhhhhhooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-05-16T00:25:00.000+08:00

i had a wonderful time juz now with da 4PM volunteers..been quite some time dat i went out with dem.so there were me,my dear,jai,izzati,boy,syafiq n bahari all out to town.Thanx to dear..he managed to pujuk izzati to follow us along.yeahhoooo!!!we had loads of fun gossiping(even da guys did ok!),catching up on things n basically hanging out.i feeel GGRREEAATT!!!da reading session was ok juz now.i didn't take sadrina..instead yaya took her.well it's ok..i took syukri.he's smartt..yeah he is..dat's y i dun mind taking him as one of my personal students soon..yesh i'm gonna be his tutor.his mum wants to prepare him early for primary 1.actually i do pity da kids nowadays..their parents are so kiasu..but den again can't blame da parents too..Y??coz da singapore syllabus is getting tougher by day.duncha all agree with me?
Hmm..i'll be helping kak sa'adah out for some upcoming activities like da kids excursion n volunteers outing...alongside with izzati n sabrina of coz..dey're da 2 most important ppl in RSP.but yeah since one is bz with work,and other haf graduating exams,i dun mind lending a helping hand..since i'm like so freaking free!ahahaaa...My mind is still pending about something.Shit..i know i need to make da decision soon..so many things in mind rite now..haven't done my speech...haven't receive Siti's speech(i wonder when is she goonna send it to me?i need to freaking edit dem!),haf 4PM things to do...foooh..all muz start pretty soon.Oh btw my dear is competing in da Singapore Robotics Games next wk..Poor poor baby,so stressed out with his gila-gila robot.Hopefully i can make it to da event.wanna give him my uttermost moral support.ceh ceh cehhh....ahahaaa...Man..it's freaking hot here.i can't stand it.i wanna sleep but da weather is not allowing me too..K k shall go n haf an early sleep now regardless of da hot weather.Ciaoz!!

2004-05-13T23:09:00.000+08:00

AMERICANS ARE STUUPIDD BLOODY RACISTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!y muz la toya london go n not dat jasmine triaz...it was so clear jasmine did not do her best laz nite but yet she's safe???wth!!!!haizz....la to ya was like my favourite eh...but nvm i'm pretty sure she'll get a recording deal soon.hahahahaha....oklah dats it..*frust frust*

2004-05-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

boredom!!!!i'm dying of boredom!!!haahaa...k dat was juz too much of an exaggeration.i tink i kinda give up on my job hunt.it's useless man.guess i juz haf to rot at home lah huh?like today..i woke up from sleep at abt 3pm.hahahaa...anak dara pemalas eh?no one was at home,so yeah i took my chance to haf a super duper long beauty sleep.so after waking up,i did some household chores like washing n hanging da clothes,cleaned my room n da kitchen.after dat,den i had my long awaited bathe..fooohhh...n i had my brunch.watched tv,slacked till my mum came back.now den i remember dat i haf to start preparing my speech for my upcoming presentation at Siglap Secondary.finally i haf some personal work to do.ahahaaha....
oh btw,my blog is under a bit of construction.making changes here n there.my dear's helping me to enhance da webbie.tenkkiiuu sayang :)!tink i haf not much to update today.been pretty bored at home since i'm always eating n sleeping.ahahaha...till den,adios amigos!

2004-05-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

ahhh....finally i'm able to blog.da past few days seems dat dis lappie of mine buat hal!cannot type my entry.haiyyoohh...anyway i juz got back home after a day with my beloved darling.went out together again..makes dat 4 days in a row we met.hahahaha...i'm so happy coz we get to spend time together...wkends were great!basically as u all know both of us went out lah.so on Saturday b4 meeting HIM,i went to nana's house n yeah we had a baking session.since i cudn't join in da "cooking" session at 4PM dat day,decided to haf my own at nana's house.and yeps..we made strawberry chocolate marble cake fer her mum fer mum's day...n aso i made one fer my dear.well...wad's da occasion u mite ask???adelah eh...ehhee..yeah we aso made chocolate chip cookies.glad dat everythin turned out fine n nobody ended up with diarrhoea or food poisoning after eating our cakes n cookies.so yeps as planned,i met HIM at 3pm...inital plan of HIS was to go to Sentosa.but wads??da thing was i was not informed coz it was meant to be a surprise..but den we didn't go there in da end coz it seemed like as if it was gonna rain....BUT it did not at da end of da day.haiii...so wasted.but anyway we had our lunch at Rex Chicken Rice...den tink3 of where to go...decided to check out da hangout hotel dat shymm used to mention..omg!!da place is like up a hill eh??haf to climb a flight of stairs..but yeah it's cozy lah da lounge...gerek to lepak.so sat there fer a while n after dat began our so called 647km version of exploring(dat's wad HE called it).so there we were exploring da area of mount emily.discovered a few roads with very weird names...like wilkie road.akhaakhhaka..cudn't help laughing.both of us kinda got lost fer a while.i mean da place was like so sunyi eh...so creepy!even though in broad daylight...we were told dat this hangout hotel was near plaza singapura...but omg!!i tink we took da freaking long way to get there..which made us lost..n worse was dat had to climb lotsa stairs..arrghh...but fun lah though my muka a bit senget already.
n da story continues..after reaching PS,we had no where to go..n my stubborn boyfriend(sori dear..hehee..)wanted to go to YMCA juz to check out da place..i showed HIM da rite way to go..but HE so insisted on going da opposite n yah wad else...it was wrong!so we had to walk all da way back..n upon reaching there,we juz sat at Mcdonalds...hahahaa...lame huh.penat tau jln dari atas bukit turun sampai YMCA.after dat decided to go karaoke lahh..dah penat perah otak kan tak tau gi mana...n know wad??WE GOT LOST AGAIN!!!!!!!ahahahahaa...thanx to HIM.akhahakhhahaa..tu lah mcm mana tah hari tu dia bleh extra degil.heran heran...but anyway karaoke was fun but freaking expensive!!!!!!!!!pity my dear haf to pay.seriously it was expensive.guess it's only dat once i'll go..hehee..n so summarization of saturday..GREAT & FABULOUS!!!
Sunday..where did i goo....hmmm..oh!again went out with my dear..dis time to da national library at Geylang East..juz felt like reading books..so basically slacked at da library..den had no where to go AGAIN!so wad we did was...we took a long bus route to my house n den upon reaching my estate..we lepak under da block n after dat went to Singapore Post at paya lebar to get my mum a mother's day cake...ahahhaa..another lame day with no destination.kwang kwang kwang..oh guess wad my sweet bro gave my mum..4red carnations which represent each of us in da family..n a purple carnation which represents my mum...how sweet huh?dere was aso rocher.never knew my bro cud b a romantic guy.*hint hint*haahhahaa..dat was basically sunday.
today..dear came over to slack at my house with me n ma bro.i lurrrrvveee it when HE comes over.it's sumthin dat i will always look forward to.slack2 sambil cari keje till abt 4..den da 3 of us left to haf brunch..my bro belanja at bugis.thanx bro...appreciate it.al maklum lah me n HIM tgh poket kering.so yeps after a filling brunch..my bro went to werk while me n my dear walked ard bugis...surveying fer things..n now yeah at home..feeeling so tired after going out fer so many days.
dear...thanx so much fer everything.i haf no words to describe how much i appreciate wad u haf done...we might not be materialistic or rich in terms of money.but we're rich in terms of quality time,love,trust n faith towards each other.let's keep it to dis pace n we're safe from anything dat will try to destroy our relationship which is filled with deep emotions n strong bond.together we will pray fer da best outcome of dis relationship ok?
owrite dat's it...dat's it..such a long entry....i'm happy happy happy...:)

2004-05-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

MY BABY PASSED HIS EXAMS!!!!!!!yeshh i'm glad HE did...good results too...proud of HIM!neway got to meet HIM fer a while juz now after his prayers.was last minute plan.went out with nana first to haig road...skali terserempak with HIM..alemak sibuk jek...so yeah so there he was,tagging along.we got our stuffz..n nana went back.as fer me n my dear,we went to changi airport.wanted to eat da cajun whipped potatoes from popeye's.yum yum!!best lagi kalau free kan.hahahahaa...neway guess wad?da viewing gallery has been reduced to half of da original size..it's like so cramped...haiyooh..n to tink it was filled with secondary school students mugging fer deir exams.ape mau exam ni sume??ahahahaha...bad bad me...so yeah..we spent abt an hour-two there..till we separated to make our way home individually..something happened juz now...HE broke my compact powder n lip gloss...errkkk!!!geram betul..but it's oklahh..luckily its da cheapo pigeon compact powder n red earth lip gloss..i cud imagine if it was my clinique powder n bobbi brown lip gloss instead,arrghhh...i'll b freaking mad!!but neway guess things were bound to happen so yah no use getting angry rite?today...looking forward to da things planned out.hopefully all will go smoothly.can't wait can't wait!!owrite gotta type out exam questions fer my student now....haf an early tuition tomm at 10am!!damn!i hope i can wake up!

2004-05-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

yeahooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!finally i got to talk to my dear!both online & offline..such a relieve!manzz..it suxz with no hp.he'll be getting his exam results today...i'm praying for da best..hopefully no sub papers for him..or else poor poor baby,haf summore exams to sit for.it's ok..i'll be meeting him on saturday(hopefully),after i settle some things with nana..yesh nana,u!kehekhee..n i can't go fer my 4PM..sobzz...gonna miss sadrina n my fellow mates.but it's ok there's still next wk.basically i rot at home juz now...woke up at 11am,watched tv.den had brunch..n suddenly i fell asleep back.ahahaha..dat bad.i'm goonna be tembam soon if dis goes on!omg!!!cannot cannot.as fer today,i might go out...c how,let's c if things werk as planned.owrite nuthing much to blog anyway.shall put a stop here.

2004-05-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

i juz feel like updating again.dis is my 4th entry for da day?haahaaa...k to all da peeps out there who're reading dis blog,officially i'm no longer using my hp.so if u wanna get hold of me,juz call me at home ok.those who dun haf my number,do tag on da board.another alternative will b thru my msn at nuramalina28@hotmail.com.know wads it feels so hard living without a hp coz da number one reason is i cannot sms or call my baby!!!can call lah but den he himself no hp,n i'm not used to calling ppl's house arh.juz dun like it..sobzz...i miss my dear..miss his voice.haizz..i'll c wad i can do.n it's like in this house there's so called a rule where i can't use da phone at night.makes it worse...no chit chatting on da phone.so how like dat?haiyoooh..upset seyy..so any kind hearted soul out there who wanna sponsor my bill?ahkahahah..i'll promise i'll b nice to u.anywayy...congratulations to Mr & Ms Romantica.u guys know who ur!another fren of mine whom has got a partner.or make it both my frenz.haii Mr Romantica,tak payah nak selindung lagi lahh...rahsia mu akan tetap ku tahu.ahahahaa...best sey sumerr ada partner masing2.well i hope fer da best of u guys yah..n Ms Romantica,jgn dah ada matair..nanti lupakan aku pulak eh?aku jotos kepala kau...paling tidak pun kena jitak jek.hahahaa..very brutal ah.dun play play!k lah gonna end here..too much updates fer da day...I still miss my baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-05-05T16:55:00.000+08:00

LePaKiNg At TM

MuKa StEp FieRcE!

NoTiE BoY

CaNtIk LaH Tu MuKeR

NoTiE BoY2

WaD'Z WiTh Dat FaCe?

WaD'z WiTh aZhAr?

LiL DeViLs

LuRvE My BrO

HaHa..KeNeR KeTuK KeTaMpI

AmEcAm??LeH JaDi AnaK BeRaNaK TaK?

Awww....LuRvInG EaCh OtHeR!!

SmaLL BuT MiGhTy!

Yo WaZZuP??!!SyaFiQ iN dA HoUzE!

YeaH It'z Us!

aLeMaK dEaR,waD TeLaH HappEn 2 Ur MouTh??

TirEd!!!!

2004-05-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

Johor Baru Trip

Da TiGa BeraDiK

My CraZy Bros + My StoiNk Dad..hahaha..

Me & My BeLoVed MuM

Mee Tom Yam

Dats Da OsTriCh

Do We EvEn LooK LikE SibLiNgS?

SeaFooD TimE!!

My PaRenTz

2004-05-05T13:49:00.000+08:00

wanted to update dis blog laz nite but was too bz editing pictures dat i forgot bout it.anyway weekends were great!da past few days has been great too...Saturday went out to TM...metro had 20% storewide sale...how can i miss it manz.so brought my bro along together with my dear.HE wanted to meet my bro so mucch..so yeah tagged along.but we had fun!dat was for sure...chilled at orange julius n of course shopped at metro.
Sunday, went to Masjid Kassim in da morning for dis Maulidur Rasul.Initially i didn't wanna go but den was forced by my dad..but hey guess it was not dat bad lah after all.after dat went back home...n my parents went to some jemputan.left with me n my 16 yr old bro..oops salah 17 yr old.den my dear called n HE asked whether dere was food at home or not.rabak sehh...HIS mum never cooked.so HE came over .we had a good time together,all of us.den i had to siap2 go to my aunt's place..got another Maulidur Rasul to go.bagus jugak HE came over..can help me carry lotsa things.ehehe...ended up taking a cab though coz was freaking late already.da majlis ended at abt 9...freaking tired eh da whole day.
Monday!!!yeay...was really lookin forward to it..Y?because da whole family was going to JB!!!!it was superb i tell u!firstly we went to Plaza Pelangi..was really hungry.den courtesy of Musa n my dear,dey suggested this place at plaza pelangi ah.it's called ON THE ROCK STONEGRILL..or sumthing like dat.its sumthing like seoul garden whereby u haf to cook ur food ah.but it's ala-carte.as in one person one meal jek.n da best thing is u cook da meat/seafood on a hot stone..cool man!i ate NZ marinated steak,my dad had NZ marinated lamb,mum had Mee Tom Yam,bros had marinated ostrich n grilled chicken chop.yesh u saw dat rite..it's ostrich.n i tell u it's very nice!!!ahahaa..da other foods were all nice too.not wasted eating there.so after our brunch..we walked ard da plaza..shopped at da metrojaya.den decided to proceed on to angsana.it was like raining heavily...luckily take cab.reached angsana abt 4+.shopped there too...bought groceries at uda ocean supermarket.we were there till 7+.after doing our maghrib prayers..we proceeded to da much awaited seafood eating at Pantai Lido.ahahahaaa....so dere we were ordering ikan bakar,chilli crabs,fried calamaris,green mussels n kerangs.fuuhh!!!!sedap dok!makan sampai kenyang.sumthing funny happened there though.but shall not disclose it.nanti ada pihak2 yg malu.kahahkahahaakaa.....so after filling our empty stomachs,we decided to head back home.we reached home abt 11.lucky for us there was no traffic jams.but there was something i realise bout JB cabbies.dey charge an extra 1.50-2.00 ringgit for da cab rides.how come?aNY answers to dat?ahahaha..
Yesterday,went out with my dear..he fetched me at abt 2.30pm at my house n we went to jurong point...yeay off we go!!took a lonngg bus ride to JP.managed to catch a few winks in da bus.at JP,we went straight to Banquet n got our food.HE had hotplate chicken hor fun,while i had fried kway teow noodle.food was good!n know wad?after dat we went back home..hahahaa...how lame..actually both of us were tired lahh..so better go home ah.dapat kluar kejap pun jadi lah.yeps basically dats all..i'm still in search for a job.today gonna sit at home i guess.dun tink i'll b going fer tuition coz it's like raining!tomorrow will call her n give some excuse ah.hahaa..dat makes it 2 lessons wasted.rabak eh tutor cam gini.but hey keadaan tak mengizinkan(more like a lame excuse).hahaaa..ok gonna bathe now n start ironing my dad's clothes.da nxt entry will be pics of my family's outing n aso da outing with my bro n dear.

2004-04-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

yeayaaa!!my 3rd change in my layout..dis is wad happens when ur freaking bored!!so how izzit??ok tak?
seems a bit lembik hah...but heck i dun care...juz feel like doing it.i'm satisfied with dis thingy.
i did it on my own n it's complete with da music i've been searching for all these while..dum di dum di dum..
k been pretty bored eversince da holidays.sit at home...if not go for interviews which juz seem to
waste my time..i'll be going for another one later at kino.hopefully i can get a job soon!!seriously..
poket kering,boyfriend bz with SRG...haiyoohh..muz keep myself occupied.can't bear to sit at home..
or more likely rot at home.finally my grandma is going back to my aunt's place.PEACE at last..but hey
i tink i'm gonna miss her kerenah.hahaaa..heck!ok tink gonna sleep now eh..tomorrow if nana call i dun
manage to wake up...die!!peace out!!
P/s:someone's got a boyfriend!!never tell me..rabak...

2004-04-21T15:26:00.000+08:00

When i was juz about to free myself from all sadness, another one came along...On Monday 220am my granduncle passed away.He was diagnosed with cancer of nasopharynx.i juz did a research on wad exactly it was...The nasopharynx is the space within the skull that is above the palate (roof of the mouth) and behind the nose. It communicates at the front with the outside air, via the nostrils, and at the back with the cavity of the mouth and throat (oropharynx).His demise is a great loss to da family because he is one jovial man who never fails to advice us da younger generation n at da same time communicate well with us.I might not be dat close to him but deep in my heart i miss him too.To all my muslim friends who r reading this entry of mine,ok gotta say dis in malay...marilah kita sedekahkan fatihah kepadanya,Ismail Bin Mohd Salleh.Semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama org2 yg beriman.Amin.Well life has to go on...so yeah all of us haf to be strong.One day,each n everyone of us will return back to where we came from.
My life has practically been getting better.alhamdulillah.to my frens n cousins who haf shown concern over my well being for da past wk..thanx a lot..i really appreciate them.i love u all...in life nothing is perfect...there are bound to be challenges dat will come by with or without u realising.it's juz da way u handle dem..i can confess here...dat laz wk i was really unable to control myself..a lot of things mostly negative were playing in my mind..but thanx to da concerned souls,especially my bro,i pulled myself up from dat drowning pool.n dear,i wanna say thanx too coz finally we made our minds up on some things.n yeah our relationship is getting better by day...i love u dear..really i do.ok gonna stop blogging now...gotta help HIM do HIS project...take care everyone...i'll end dis post with a few of my recent pics with my dear...

2004-04-17T09:36:00.000+08:00

Today's entry is gonna be damn emotional..i need to let out things that haf been kept in me for quite some time.so for those who'll be unable to take it,pls DUN go on and read.
It's been a week or so that i haf felt like dis.it's very disturbing..no peacefulness in my heart.it's always worrying,sadness,unhappiness.to sum it up,i seriously feel dead.whenever i feel happy, there will always be something to crash it down n yah there i go being unlively again.now even though my SIP is over,it seems nuthing to me.i dun exactly feel da joy.maybe ppl dun c that i'm not my usual self.i try not to bring my problems out coz i'm not dat kinda person.sometimes i think, does it pay to be kind? does it actually take up so much time to understand a person's situation.
everybody has problems,everybody feels stress, so do i.even so,i try to b there when u need me..but u juz dun seem to like it.sarcasm doesn't help either. maybe u juz dun c y i worry so much for u. my heart has been crying for u for days..i've cried out tears too..but maybe it was stupid of me to do so. but i can't help it. it pains my heart when i tink of things dat are going on btwn us. when i hear a certain song,i'm reminded of u.when i look at certain things around..i'm reminded of u too.been pretty much losing my appetite coz i can't get over things.i've lost my interest over many things.sometimes ur actions make me feel like i'm not important to u anymore and dat i'm never in ur tots.At times i feel unappreciated for even da smallest things i've done...or maybe u dun c them.but that doesn't matter.
Me constantly worrying and thinking of u..what is dat?is dat what u call love?or izzit juz being possessive or wad?but hey i'm not dat kinda girl...am i?i dunno..i NEVER ever wanted to be possessive.i'm still feeling disturbed.i've been a strong girl all these while but rite now i feel helpless like i'm drowning in a pool of water.My feelings are all mixed up.My body system seems to be producing lots of tears for me to waste. i cry easily over things..wad da fark has happened to me?has da thing dat u call love overtaken me?or was it possessiveness??arrghh i dunno.i feel sick now...mentally and physically. let time decide den.........

2004-04-13T13:22:00.000+08:00

yeayy!!i got da soundtrack!~a whole new world~purrfeecctt song for the blog!i love it,i lurrvveee it!hahaa...ok dat was exaggeration.currently in da library at my usual spot again.it's lunch time but dun tink i'm gonna haf lunch as yet.having crampz ah..haiyoohh..but alah biasa lah tu.it's like da laz wk of SIP!!yahoooo....but i was late again juz now despite of taking a cab down to school..late by 3 mins..hhahaaa.took cab coz i woke up late.but i tink michelle gave face to me arhh..tink she approved my reason.kiak kiak kiak.i'm counting down to da days dat i'll end my SIP.can't wait can't wait.hahaha..hopefully i get to go thru ah.den we all can haf our beach outing.yeayyy!!Hmm i tink by da time i'll b broke ah.hahahaa...I AM broke now...*hint hint* dear u getting it?hhahaa...jahat aku.neway i haf to thank my dear here..HE's been fetching me to n fro from my student's place almost everytime.thank u dear..i know HE's tired n all..but i never ask HIM to do it ah..HE willingly one..i'm proud of HIM..really i am in almost anything HE does.so here i am gonna post proudly da robot dat he n his group mates has done.it's a well done robot which is able to track black coloured line.n da best thing of all is dat it was able to complete da whole track!!yes it did.hahaa...owrite gonna end dis entry with da lyrics from ashanti.it's specially dedicated to u my DEAR..enjoy!!

HAPPY:
Boy you feel me with so much joy
You give (whatever it is I need)
My love, here to stay, won't ever leave
So glad (that you fell in love with me)

(My love is so good)
That I wouldn't be without you babe
Couldn't see me without you babe
(My love is so good)
That I wouldn't be with out you babe
Couldn't see me with out you baby

(All my life) I've been searching for ya
(Everyday) So glad, that I, found ya boy
(All my life) I've been, feeling for ya
(Everyday) I'm so happy, baby, yeah

Boy you, got me feeling so good
You take (all my pain away from me)
Without you around I couldn't be
And I'm (glad you fell in love with me)

(My love is so good)
That I wouldn't be without you babe
Couldn't see me without you babe
(My love is so good)
That I wouldn't be without you babe
Couldn't see me without you baby

(All my life) I've been searching for ya
((Everyday) So glad , that I, found ya boy
(All my life) I've been feeling for ya
(Eveyday) I'm so happy baby, yeah!

I'm so happy that I fell in love
I thank God he sent you from above
I'm so happy that I found someone
I thank God he sent you from above

(All my life) I've been searching for ya
(Everyday) So glad, that I, found ya boy
(All my life) I've been, feeling for ya
(Everyday) I'm so, happy, baby, yeah

(All my life) I've been (I've been)
searching (searching) for ya
(Eveyday) So glad (So glad) that I
(that I) found ya boy
(All my life) I've been (I've been)
feeling (feeling) for ya
(Everyday) I'm so (I'm so) happy (happy)
baby

Oooooh, that I wouldn't be without you babe
Couldn't see me without you, baby

2004-04-12T10:48:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time....nearly a wk dat i didn't blog..simply because it was not my week..a lot of unpleasant happenings which i dun wish to talk about..it's over rite?dis is a new week...let's move on..yeahhh. :)laz nite was da first time after so long dat i really had a good long crappy chat with my dear on da phone.bascically it was nonsense...we were reminiscing our past..talked bout our ex gfs/bfs.wad happened with dem...y we broke up with dem,y we fell in love with dem.hahaha...nonsense here and there.talked abt ourselves...y r we like dis n like dat.y quarrel over small matters..it was fun...all da secrets were out...one conclusion dat i made.*Guys will always be insensitive jerks*hahaha...no matter how much u love dem,dey will still b a jerk in ur eye in one way or another..hey to all da guys reading out there...so sorry but it's TRUE!!!~kwang kwang kwang~our conversation was filled with laughter,smiles n even tears.yes,it can somehow get emotional too..but hey it was worth all of it...da truth is da best!Rite dear?i really needed dat stress buster after much crap dat happened in da wk.yup so basically i haf nuthing much to say...i'm juz hoping dat dis wk will b a smooth sail.yeahh..n i'm looking forward to my sin of sundae...u know who u are!!hahahaa..it's a treat dat u still owe us!rite girls?heheezz...ok adios!!

2004-04-06T00:30:00.000+08:00

*ALERT!!!*NEW LAYOUT!!!YEAHOOO........

2004-04-05T10:47:00.000+08:00

finally!!!!PENTAS is overr....pheewww....i'm so damn glad..all da freaking hard work n scoldings paid off...but still i suck at performing..hahahahaa...seriusly...dat muz b due to my laziness in going for training.ahahaaha...typical of me.but hey know wad i luuurrrrvveeee my subgroup Nira Nyertika.Dey rock!!So no regrets...well it was pretty crappy during rehearsals n all...actually even on da actual show..but hey it's over....so wad's done cannot be undone rite?being in da committee aso was crap...i was stress to da max till da actual event..i had to perform,i had to settle publicity matters...yah crap!HE got angry with me...pe jek...but hey it's juz a small matter..know wad know wad??HIS eX came to watch PENTAS...hahahaa...since HE was doing da ticketing..he was telling me loads of things....hahaha.me n da girlss,we had loads n loads of fun!!seriously...n da best thing..know wad dey actually call me kakak.hahhahaa...i kinda like felt old!!!but hey it's respect ok...yeps.dere's so much things to say...dat i dun even know where to start...but yah i enjoyed my weekends....though i'm like sooo da veryy da tired....still tired now tau!!yesterday i went out with my dear,my bro n dee....went to haf brunch at saffron..hahahaa...i was so craving for da prata plaster.hmm...yum yum...after eating,we all separated.my bro went home,dee went home too...so i n HIM went to bugis n OG.ahahaha...walked around,eat ice cream.it was like finally i'm spending time with him...after all da trainings and all...really missed HIM though i c his face like almost everyday.but hey it's different from spending quality time out.yeay!!we're eyeing on da same hp to buy...it's da nokia 7200...but hell da price is sooooooo bloody steep.might get dem laterr ahh eh?maybe near da end of da yr?dunno c how ahh....who knows by dat time,a nicer model wil come out?but yeah for now its 7200!!!mann it's sooo sleek!n aso we're eyeing on dis swatch skin watchh...ahahahah....byk berangan ah kitaorg ni...duit takde...berangan byk.hahahahaa...typical.ok i'm gonna post pics of PENTAS n yesterday!!!

BeHiNd Da ScEnEs Of NiRa NyErTiKa

PaRt Of Da JuNiOrS

BaIk2 CiK SaLmAh

B4 MaKe Up

WhO'S dAt GuY!!

CanDiD

WiD dA eXtRa

SwEeT LiL HaNa

Me N Ma BeSt FreN

Me N Ma BeLoVed PeNgAsAs,Na'iM

Me N Ma oLd Bud,Nat

KeLeTaH sUmEr

SeNiOrS oF NiRa NyeRtIka

Me N Ma AbG

Da BeaUtIfUL SeNoRiTaZ!

SuNdaY OuTiNg

ThOsE aRe PiX oF Me N Ma CrAzY BrO

At SaFfRoN..LooK aT dA TiReD FaCeS Of Me N hiM!!HoRriGiBLe!!

2004-03-31T15:49:00.000+08:00

today is Musa's birthday!!!!Happy _ _th birthday yahh!!hahahaa....not gonna disclose da age.neway yesterday me n my dear went to celebrate his birthday at breeks...well i didn't know it initially...but yeah was i suprised....we had loads and loads of fun...laughing and talking...manzz..cool ah!den there was another suprise upcoming,which didn't know either..there was a birthday cake...juz a small one thoughh...Musa was so touched...he said he never felt dat great...i feel great too dat he loved it.neway juz to update,last weekend was a great one too...on saturday had my dk barat training,den went to esplanade with dee...n met with ishdah too..woohooo...BEST!!!sunday,went over to ishdah's place..had a girls gathering there...FUN N FUN N FUN!!!k like ppl say,pictures can say a thousand words....gonna post da pics here...i love da digicam..makes my life easier...till da next entry!!

MUSA'S BIRTHDAY

GIRL'S GATHERING AT ISHDAH'S HOMIE

OUTING TO ESPLANADE

2004-03-29T09:38:00.000+08:00

cafe cartel pics up!!

DeY MaKe A LoVeLy CoUpLe DuN u TiNk?

Da FooD MuZ B NiCe HuH

KiaT'S AnGeLz

I WaS Da LaMpOsT!!

LiZ n Me

GoWrI n Me

My CraVeD CaKe!!

CaNdiD :P

2004-03-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

shit happens!!today sucks...tomorrow will determine everything.i hope luck is on my side..i really do..can't dissapoint my parents n myself anymore.not gonna talk abt it..mayb i will after tomorrow.gonna update on wads been happening so far....went to cafe cartel for lunch with my friends on tuesday...had my long-craved chocolate cake...my my heavenly!!it tasted good...da others had a filling lunch...took photos there...talked bout each other's life...man it feels gd to be together like dat...we knew each other's secrets..ehhee..well guys our mouths will b zipped yahh..tried uploading da pics to photobucket,but can't seem to upload...will try again tomorrow...da comp at my house sucks..it's down again...so yah i can't surf at home.how boringg...after school in da evening,i n HIM went to meet our fren Musa at da Ya-Kun Coffee House..sat dere 4 quite some time...had our long long chat...been some time since we caught up with him.had some photos of him taken...haahaa...will post dem next entry.yesterday...had permission from supervisor to go out to buy motors...went out with liza to lavender..after dat separated ways...i went back home.slack at home...listen to my grandma grumble n see her drama mama....den at abt 3,my dear fetched me from home to school...went back to school...clocked out...n den HE sent me to my tuiton...i brought my digicam...so dere we were in da bus snapping photos..ahhahaa...thanx dear for sending.had my tuition lesson...took photos with my student too...been wanting to take photo with her..lesson went well...which den i headed home...felt so exhausted...rites gonna publish da pics...enjoy!

AcTiNg To B ShOcKeD!

AnOtHeR OnE

NaK SeTeP LoViNg

Da RoCkZ

NaK TgK MaNa JeK

BlUeHH!!

My StUdEnT

In Da OLd DaYz

2004-03-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

Misunderstandings...It'll always occur in relationships.But den again it's up to both parties to fully understand da situation n try to solve it together.Thankfully me n HIM come to terms with it n yes we did settle da matter.Sometimes misunderstandings happen due to some stupid reasons.n when u think of it back yeah it's so dumb to quarrel.haahahaa..finally i'm back to da way i am after all da thrashing out session.hehee..thnx dear..u finally understood me.Sunday was a gd day..i went out with HIM after our serious session.went to town to watch the eye2.omg!!it's so not scary...seriously..lame ah.byk terkejut jek..hantu dia pun tak seram.ahahaha..so dis movie is not recommended.haahaha..after movies at GV grand,decided to go home cos it was raining n i still felt sleepy.HE sent me home n all..Saturday was great!!i always look forward to it.had meeting in da morning but being lazy,decided to skip it.diana drove me to 4PM..had to be dere earlier coz i had to take over Sab.upon reaching there,i was quite shocked by da number of volunteers present.quite little...but nahh was ok..we all manage to handle all da kids.My kid nasha didn't come,so i took sadrina,since ani wasn't there.My my..dis sweet cute lil girl is smart yah..juz dat she's quiet.dere's a tactic to make her open up.yeahh...luckily she's in group A...coz i brought my own home materials for nasha..but since she wasn't there,i passed it on to sadrina.RSP was quite brief yesterday.ended pretty early.all of us wrapped up at 5.30pm.while sab,halil,jai,sabira,zai,bahari n yaya went to watch da eye2,i n dee went to meet our fren dannie to haf dinner with him..yeahh he belanja u know...delifrance summore..best best!!was quite a short meet coz he had to go back werk.after filling our empty stomachs,me n dee proceeded to esplanade n fullerton...walked ard...had crazy ideas...pose here n dere with my digicam.ahahaha...but it was total fun..rite dee?we shall do dat nxt wk ok?n i'll bring extra batteries.hahaha...met ida at fullerton.she's still da same old girl i knew.talking bout dat,hey ida n shidah...when can we meet up n go out again?miss da times.haahaha..u guys know wad i'm talking bout.wokies gonna end dis entry with some photos....
In Da BuS

4PM

EsPLaNaDe

2004-03-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey..here are some pix which we took on his birthday!enjoy...

2004-03-19T09:57:00.000+08:00

great..i was late again today for da 2nd time in a wk!!!damn damn....wad a way to start da day!yesterday night was such a F**King nite..n to tink i juz wanted to get over it,dis has to happen today...my mum went to JB early in da morning,n she didn't wake me up...gd ah?but wadda hell...it's only left 1 more mth till SIP end n i'm done.sometimes i ponder,where lies da privacy of children if parents keep probing into it.wud dey like it if deir children do da same thing to dem?dun tink so rite?n with me being like almost 21 already,still doin dat...wadda heck?hello..y get worked up over a stupid bill?if deir like paying for it,fine go ahead n babble...but NO i'm like working for it...i'm da one paying it...so stop messing with my stuffs ah.f**k ah...really pissed off...den now dey like wanna check almost everything..my bills n all..dey even took my post box key..so dey can take my bill n c it...tink i so stupid izzit...i haf my ways lahh...so too bad parents u can't see my bills.my bro aso got pissed with dem yesterday...actually in particular,it's my dad ah.i dun give a damn ah...yo bro..dun bother bout him.u haf ur ways rite..so use ur brains.i haf dis feeling dat today's gonna b a shitty day...well we'll c how it goes.......

2004-03-18T12:04:00.000+08:00

Wednesday 17 March 2004..dat was my dear's 19th birthday!!which is yesterday lahh..hahahaa...da finally awaited day arrived.hehehee...was such a great day!marvellous!!!in da morning i went to school to clock in first..i decided to make it my official off day from "work".sat down with da peeps at design canteen first before meeting HIM at tampines interchange.passed my matric card to my lovely Liz.thanx ah..ehheee..left da campus at abt 9.20am.met HIM at small mac,den took da mrt to jurong east.in da mrt i gave him HIS "fake" present,which was a small bear + a small card.he liked it though..decided to bring him ice skating at fuji ice palace..fuiyoo da place ok lah not bad...never been there before.i tot it was gonna b big...but not lah.so there we were ice skating and all..HE'S so happy coz he got to laugh at me falling down.weii...i never ice skate before tau.first time..lemme count,i fell 3 times.2 on my front n once on my butt..my jeans wet ah.n HE juz keep laughing his heads off..takper tak kisah..when i got my balance,we skated together in da rink.was fun,kaki pun cramp.hahahaa..took photos with my digi cam.we left fuji ice palace at abt 1pm...n headed to banquet jurong point to eat ah..wad else...so hungry after skating n falling down in da icy rink.i had laksa yong taufu,while HE had horfun in a hot plate..great food which was not dat filling.hehehe...was still hungry ah,but can maintain.den we took da bus to go to east coast.i planned to bring him go bowling.bus ride was quite long..so ended up both of us sleeping.shiok!reached east coast at abt 4pm.know wad,i'm like so excited to bring him bowling,but i myself dunno how to bowl...i was telling myself confrim i make a fool out of myself.n it was really true...da ball always go inside da longkang.hahahaahaha....*slaps forehead*but it was fun.well of coz he won all da games.takper kasi chance birthday boy.never knew it cud b tiring to bowl.serious seh my hand cramp.haahahaha..so after da tiring 3 rounds(pathetic huh),went to 7-11 to get drinks..thristy man,n mcdonalds to get a big mac meal for HIM.n for da 1st time,i tried da mcolosso(wadever u spell it).it's nice!!we sat my da beach.while he ate his burger...toook stupid2 photos again..practically snapping photos da whole day.DEN!i finally gave him HIS real present...ahhahaa...know wad?HE tot HE was gonna b saboed!hey dear..i'm not so bad like u ok...eheehe..well HE was touched by da cross stitch dat i did...so to all u ppl da dat thing dat i haf been doing was a cross stitch.n of coz he liked da adidas t-shirt..dun u dear?we sat there till like it rained n yah went back after dat...tot i wanted to bring HIM to breeks to eat,but den i c da weather like dat,i cancel ah.HE sent me back home...took photos again.Dear,i'm extremely glad u enjoyed ur time..do did i.I'm happy dat i made u smile n laff on ur birthday.dat smile means a lot to me n it certainly makes my day.I love u dear!ok ok i'm being so lembik here..haahaa...shall stop it.i'll be posting pics soon,dat is after i find my cable to transfer da pics from digi cam to pc.so stay tuned!oh n btw happy 18th birthday to my beloved cuzzy,zakiah.may u haf a bright future ahead in ur accomplishments!owrite gtg now...going central with gowri n liz..till da nxt update!

2004-03-15T16:45:00.000+08:00

da weekends was great!saturday had my volunteer work...but before den went for brunch with HIM at banquet parkway parade.food was good,enjoyed HIS company...he sent me off to 4PM.thanx dear!dere at 4PM,i chose my kid...took firdaus's sister,Nasha Elfyana..she's so cutee u know..firdaus was there too...but being him not knowing ppl yet,juz shut up n not talk...slowly i managed to interact with him.. did da entry assesment with nasha.she's quite weak with her basics,but she's very smart.dat's y i dun mind taking her...so officially now i'm in group a but still da in-charge of group c...hmmm...after da session ended,we had a short debrief..wanted to rain n all of us were hungry.but kak sa'adah had a meeting with sab first...so me,dee,asryna,jai,bahari n yan waited for sab to finish her meeting before going out to eat...was soooo loonngg ok...lapar kita sumer...sampai hujan.so while waiting,we cracked jokes,laugh like mad...me,asryna n bahari exchanged looks of our matric cards..aahhhahaa..was so funny...one of these days,will b having lunch with 2 of dem in school...hopefully!after sab was done,all of us proceeded to ya salam.was so packed though it was raining.had a hard time finding seats,coz we were quite a big group,but finally did get one.sat there till abt 9.15 n we made our way back...took train with sab,jai,asryna n yan..well yan will b going NS tomm..so all da best to him!sunday,went to but was super duper late...ahahahaa....den met HIM to have brunch again..but he treat me!yeah!!i was broke lahh...so me him n his fren awal went to haig road to eat..yum yum i had my share of mee kuah mama...fuiyoo sedapp...awal is such a nice guy..hahaha...so lembut.after eating,HE sent me back home...thanx again dear..owe u alot but will repay u during ur birthday eh..hahahaa...at abt 5,i went to pasir ris to my grand uncle's place...he juz got discharged from da hospital...diagnosed with nose cancer..but his cancer had spread.when i saw him,i really wanted to cry..da radiotherapy made him lose lots of weight!n da growth on his neck is getting big dat it actually made him look in a very bad state.well da doctor said dat da cancer was due to his years of smoking.n after seeing him like dat i suddenly felt so scared for my dear.he's been smoking n obviously i dun wanna see him being in da same state rite?so yah there i was telling him.he has cut down on his intake though...very glad for dat.juz now i clocked in late for school..woke up late lahh so heck ahh...come late...den went to peace centre to collect da banner...cool finally it's done...den went to Rex with HIM to eat.omg!da nasi ayam is so niceeee!!!muz go there again soon.so now here i am at da library again...juz now bought a mars bar for my student.she did well in her malay test.so dat's her reward...will b going there today to teach n aso to collect my pay!!yeay..will b getting dat thing dat i want tomm...n aso to repay my bro +pay my bills...haizz bills...it's been so high these past few months abt 100++ u know...damn!muz cut down liao...ok dat's it...gonna publish dis post n change da background song.hehehe..until da nxt entry!!!

2004-03-13T00:59:00.000+08:00

finally...i'm blogging from home.hahahaha...neway it's juz past midnite n it's a new day!today is saturday...yeahoo!!!i'm looking forward for my 4PM session today.yeah yeah..been 2 days since i blogged..so lemme fill u guys in.
WEDNESDAY:
as i haf mentioned in da previous entry,i went back at 12pm.felt a bit feverish..mayb was due to being caught in da rain.i had to wait for HIM to go back coz i needed to take my necessary school forms.n yeah HE made me waited for him for 30mins.n so because of dat,we both got worked up n started to "quarrel".but we made up after dat...rite in da same evening.so went back to school to clock out.n HE insisted on sending me to my tuition place...how sweet yah.but since we had time,we went to eat first at mcdonalds bugis village,felt sleepy after eating n was like so tempted to go home,but no..i went to teach.hehehe..n yeah HE waited for me till da end of my lesson.thanx dear...ur so superlicious.HE sent me home n all.n rite after reaching home,i slept...ZzzZzzz...
THURSDAY:
woke up late for school n ended taking a cab down.wastage of money..haiyahzz can't help it.set with my mates at da canteen till like lunch.i continued doing dat thing.so for lunch,i n gowri proceeded to Jupiter Cafe.She had her share of chicken spaghetti,while i ate fries.didn't feel dat hungry.n yeah did dat thing again...when will i ever finish?hahaa..anyway while sitting there i saw dzul.he was with his fren azmi.n yeah he saw wad i did..neway dzul thanx 4 da compliment yah...as he says it's difficult to hear compliments from him.hahahaa..he n his fren went to design for lunch,while i enjoyed my fries with chamomile tea.at abt 1.30,me n gowri went up to da lib.needed to check some stuff online,so yeah dere we were surfing for abt 1hr n after dat went to level 7 to continue doing dat thing.gowri aso had sumthing similar to do.so without realising how fast time pasts by,it was already time to clock out n i was like still not done..hahahaa..wad to do..first time learner(so called).so quite slow pace ah.was suppose to eat with HIM after clocking out,but den decided to meet up with my 2 cuzzy dee n zakiah n eat with them.went to safffron.had 2 egg plaster prata with a glass of tea tarik...aahhh wad nice meal for a cold weather.all 3 of us had a long chat exchanging updates of our lives.den zakiah was telling me dat she wanted to get sumthing for her bf,Tahir.so i recommended something at isetan n yeah we went straight there.she was attracted to dat thing dat she got it immediately fer Tahir.it's a MOGU anyway.after dat we 3 went ard TM n CS till 8pm.i bought something for HIM,dat's for his birthday though.it's cute..well i tink later i'll take a pic of his gifts n post it up here..
FRIDAY:
was late again for school n therefore took cab again.*slaps forehead*.i'm like so wasting da freaking money...ok no more after dis.so there i was back in school.doing dat thing.i kinda like complete it already,coz da nite before i was doin it.juz need to touch up here n there.there was a swimming carnival held by Tao Nan School at our school pool.so cute da kids.but there was dis particular boy who got on my nerves..he keep squirting water on our table.gowri scolded him...but he tot it was me...it's ok..i dun mind.at least he's scared when he sees me.ahaahaha..*mean smile*met linda at cyber centre to do da printing of poster n copy da design to cd-rw.after going thru much hassle doing dat,i went back to da canteen...poor frens of mine had to wait so long for me.den zakiah sms me,wanting to meet me at 11.45am.so yeahh,me,gowri n kiat made a move.kiat went off first.i n gowri went to OSC.needed to settle da tickets n poster matter.after dat was done,we went to spotlight again.ahahahahaa...she bought her sewing materials,while i bought a length of ribbon.dee came first,den followed by zakiah.so we made a move first,leaving gowri behind.went to TM..zakiah wanted to get Tahir a black eyed peas cd.after buying dat,we went ard looking for boxes n nice paper bags.hahahaa...funny lah dis zakiah.so particular.in da end she got all her stuffs.den zakiah went off to meet Tahir while me n dee went straight to Citylink Mall...we promised our fren dann.went to get wad i wanted from citylink mall...thanx dann,i owe u one!!was rushing for time,so had to eat at CAvana Marina.initially wanted to eat at town.after filling our hungry stomachs,we went to Peace Centre to go get da banner done...unfortunately..da design was too small to be enlarged.so haf to come back again.n yeah i'll b going today with linda...dee thanx for keeping me company yah...dah biasa kan?reached school in time to clock out.met HIM at abt 6pm after his floorball session.kinda miss not seeing HIM for da day.took 69 to interchange n den *blank*!!both of us dunno where to go..ahhahaa...weird.after much thinking,decided to go T2 n eat at popeyes..we took away n sat at a viewing gallery to eat.was pretty tired,so both of us kinda like slept.hahaaa..at abt 8.45,we left T2.HE had to go teach zaheed.we took da same buses,but he alighted first at bedok reservoir,n now while i'm typing,he's still at zaheed's house.Dear,thanx for da time spent today.*smilez*k gonna end here...i sure hopre today will b filled with lotsa excitement!

2004-03-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

it's wednesday morning....yawwnnzz!!boringg...today i can go home...coz my group leader is not here.hehehe..liz is gone...after dis will b kiat.so i'll b da laz one to go back coz i haf to wait for HIM to give back my form.oh btw i juz changed da song.finally knew dat it's jason mraz who sang it..hahahaha...outdated lah me...doinkz!well wad can i blog today?hmm...lemme see..on monday i went to school..had nuthin much to do since gowri was not there aso..so i ended up being in da lib...was raining da whole time eh...i waited for HIM to go lunch..it's a special occasion so yeahh went out together.went to haf lunch at banquet simei.finally had my chicken chop dat i was craving for.ate there...talk crap...den since it was still raining,n not wanting to get wet,we went back to school lib to sleep!hahahaha...so me n HIM slept in da lib till like 5+,juz in time 4 me to clock out...den i accompanied him at the canteen til 6+ n i proceeded to go 4 tuition.actually i was thinking whether i shud go or not....coz of da rain...but i juz went ahead..n it so proved to be a wrong move...when i wanted to leave the place,da rain got heavier..so i had to borrow my student's umbrella...ok dat's not so bad....den i had to walk to da bus stop at serangoon road...n u know wad da area was FLOODED!!Arrrggh!!!so pissed off u know...haf to walk in puddles of water which reach abt the ht of my knees...my whole jeans got wet...n den...in da midst of walking in da flood,my feet got cut my a rock.omg!!i cursed ard like mad...ahahahaa...can't help it ah...bad weather,so bad mood lah.dun care n i finally reach da bus stop.when i boarded da bus,everyone look at me.WTF!hahahahaa...wadever lah eh...wad a rainy n bad monday.grrrr....yesterday aso did nuthing much.i went to meet catherine to show her da banner stuff,den sat at da lib till 1.had lunch with HIM at design..n den my cousin came.so i accompanied her while HE went 4 class...at abt 2+ me n dee went to spotlight.i needed to get some stuff.was suppose to go with gowri,but she had went home,so it's ok...walked ard tm..ate again at KFC...somehow or rather i felt very very hungry yesterday.den at 5 i went back to school to clock out n went for training at abt 6.a few matters had to b settled during training,so i stayed on for a while...at 7 i went back first..ate again at BK.proceeded home n slept.ahahahhaa...tired man.n today here i am at da library.will b going back at 12...come back at 5,n den go straight to tuition...ya dar darrr :P PEACE!!

2004-03-08T11:14:00.000+08:00

gd morning!well now i'm in da school lib...sitting at da same spot as always.hahhaa...boring life huh?now i'm like da library face girl.but waddaheck?dun care...today i feel like updating eh..ahahhaa..coz i had a pretty gd weekend.so here i am to share with all..
FRIDAY:
i had school which was like such a bore...but i didn't haf to clock out!!how great!actually i planned to watch dirty dancing with HIM but both of us being broke,we decided not to.waited for HIM to finish his prayers,n we went to town to haf lunch...went to cahaya at far east plaza n i met Mardiana...she's da fren i've known since primary 1.it's been so long i wanted to go out with her,but both of us are so caught up with our own matters,dat we haf to cancel most of our outings.so anyway i saw her with her bf...how gd dat she's doing part time teaching at Bendemeer Primary.ppl all grad from poly but me not yet...hahaha...but nvm it's only like a few months more..i'm sure i can make it...so we had a long chat there...then i had to proceed to Peace Centre to get the quotation for PENTAS banner...oh btw...some publicity here..those of u whu dun know...PENTAS is an annual event by MAG.dis yr it'll b on the 3rd of april...those who wanna go n get tix,do approach me.it's 6 bucks.ok so back to my story...me n HIM went there courtesy of recommendation from linda...well managed to get da banner according to da stipulated cost given.was pretty satisfied with it.so after getting da quotation done,we decided to go to Suntec City...coz actually while at Far East Plaza,i wanted to eat at Gelare.. but when i tot of it,i rather go to Suntec Outlet..coz dat place has a certain memory of me n HIM.ahahahaa...so funny..so we proceeded there,n i got my chocolate overload ice cream...omg!it's so heavenly....ahahaha...while HE bought something from Auntie Anne's.den we proceeded to da sky garden to eat n to joke ard..i treasure dat kinda quality time with HIM coz earlier part of da wk did not turn out well for both of us.so we sat there till 9+ n went back home...Oh home has not been normal eversince my grandma is there...but yeah guess i haf to bear with it as long as she's here.

SATURDAY:
Saturday was a blast at 4PM!yeahh...hehehe...but before i made my way to 4PM,i went to school first to meet catherine to give her da quotation..she was quite pleased with it..n i'm so proud of myself dat i was able to handle dis publicity matter on my own.ahahahaa...so at 4PM i helped out with da preparations there.basically i had nuthin to do...so i slack lorr...so i received my certificate of appreciation n ya daa daa....before da actual RSP started,me,izzati n sabrina went back to 4PM office to go n zap stuffz...so while we were there,we began planning our sabo party on our volunteers,especially HIM.ahahhaa..we persuaded HIM to come down.n he did...so while in da office also,we 3 girls were basically gossiping n talking things out on our personal stuffs and all..was great.we went back to eunos cc n HE was there..he didn't look too good.had his migraine.n he was like so on going home,but managed to get hold of him.ahahaha..so there we were blowing candles n cutting da cake.HE got saboed first by boy,den followed by sab...n know wad...tak pasal2 da cream went to my face also...grrr...tapi takpe tak pasal...den followed by izzati n jai.hahaha..after dat when da RSP session continued,HE sat downstairs n i cud c dat HE was really not well...asked him to go home...luckily his father fetched.so at abt 5 plus all da volunteers went back to 4PM office to haf a debrief..was fun...dat day's session rocks!!so at abt 6+,da other volunteers left for dinner,while i n dee sat back n accompanied kak sa'adah to do her work...we shared lotsa things together.i'm glad dat i joined dis programme.i LOVE da ppl here..so after dat,i went to Pizza Hut TM to meet my famlily.it was my parents 21st wedding anniversary,n dey decided to haf dinner dere....dinner was great..with everyone being present.basically da day ends there...

SUNDAY:
Sunday morning,i woke up n got ready for class agama...but as usual i'm always late..ahhahahaa...met zaf n syabz at raimah first.zaf needed to pass ammalia some stuffs.so sat there first,b4 going in.know wad ammalia said?she tot i was 16!!!wahhh dat's a compliment man..ahahahaha...received da same comment on saturday by this guy,Darius.best jugak eh...class ended at abt 12pm.n i went to meet HIM at kembangan mrt.HE was from driving lesson.Made a decision to go parkway banquet coz i wanted to eat western food.but how saddening there was no chicken chop!!sobz..so ended up eating fishball noodle..luckily nice.after filling our empty stomach,tot of juz going home since we had no where to go.Singapore too small dat we run out of ideas already.so HE sent me back home...but on da way i tot it was way too early to reach home n i dun wanna listen to my grandma put up her drama mama...so i told him let's sit at da void deck.n yeah we sat there till like 5pm?n my dad called...nag2 asking me to go home...yah yah i know dad...u know wad i dun mind juz sitting down under da block with him n talk nonsense or do stupid childish stuffz...it's da time dat we get together..i'm glad we haf made it thru dis far...ok dat's it.ahahahahaa...at night i watched erin brockovich...i was so looking forward to watch it coz i felt da urge after reading her life story...i was really inspired by her...she is one woman who is brave,independent n not scared of challenges.instead she stands up to them.n i like da way she carries herself..n most of all i like her LASER mouth.hahahahaa...yeshaa..ok dis has been a pretty long entry.gonna stop blogging.hahahaa...till da next update!

2004-03-04T12:20:00.000+08:00

harlo ppl...dis is my finally awaited blog for all to c.hahahaa...maybe to some ppl.well i will try to do daily posts yahh..but currently i'm still working on da layout.

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